Josh, you will keep my pages down, personal or otherwise, over my dead body.  Be proud, these are your actions!  You made a conscious decision to be and do what you claim to hate, take the responsibility of acceptance.

~Morrigan

    You keep saying we weren't even dating. I could agree with that to a point. You knew damn well that if I had known about Bev, Sky, Elizabeth, Teresa, Jo, Deb, Teri, and Lord knows how many names I've forgotten, I wouldn't have been  waiting on you to get your shit together and get here. I specifically asked over and over and even suggested we see other people and you said no, you didn't want to, you weren't seeing anyone IN ANYWAY except Paula and Jeff. You say Online things are Online.....well hon, you don't spend money you don't have from your unemployment checks to buy gifts for people you meet online unless you are planning on making it more. That don't wash either. We had that discussion right after I found out about Shannon WAY back in January and I told you then I wasn't about to put up with that shit anymore. You forgot how you met me. You are simply embarassed your ass got caught, but since you worked so hard at it, you should be proud, after all you did think it all out, you knew the concequences of your actions. There is nothing you can say that makes you right. Yes, I was dishonest, and yes, I made mistakes in the relationship, I have NO problem admitting to that, but the one thing I CAN say is that I was honest with you about my feelings, about what I wanted, about who I was or was not seeing (after I told you the truth about the lies I'd told) where you did nothing from the beginning but lie to me. I'm not even going to get into the trip there in November, you know damn well what you've said is a lie, no point in rehashing that. As for the miscarriages, you were here the weekend it started, you are the one  who was concerned about my bleeding, you are the one who wanted me to go to the doctor. Denie it if it makes you feel better, but you know damn well how sick I was and that I had to take off work for 4 weeks, lost my driving rights during that time too. You feel guilty because you were out sleeping with Kim and Paula at the time. Josh, your ability to tell the truth has colored even your memories, but you continue to lie. Does it make you feel like a big person to have people believe you just because you say it is true? Do you sleep better at night knowing that if you say it, you are believed?  Has playing in MUDDS and being a god, made you THINK you are God? Psychologists say that for people like you guilt eats at them everytime they tell another lie or hurt another person, even emotionally numb people, there are a million and one studies about it, but I don't think you even have the capacity for guilt. I have no idea what I ever saw in you except the broken person you are. I am sorry I ever risked hurting my children with you, I truly am. Already Alex feels like he can lie because you have, don't you feel good about passing that on?