Attached are emails from SD, WI, CC, Bev, me, and the email to Rhonda you screwed up on purpose ~ they will do for proof. The phone conversations I sadly did not tape. Oh, and lets not forget nini who's had the good sense to stand you up 4 times.
Original Subject: RE: Lying
Original Sender: Balor <[email protected]>
Original Date: Mon, 11 May 2000 19:27:18 -0500
Yeah, I placed the add, I was just trying it out, doesn't mean
I was fuckin around.
Jumpher (Morrigan) wrote:
And you said you weren't fucking around. THIS is what you wanted
that cam for, not to work things out with me.
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Questions where Balor does not match you: Education: Some College
Illicit Drugs: Never
Rhonda
The address is wrong, you going to fix it?
-------- Original Message -------- Subject: HI
Date: Fri, 21 Apr 2000 20:42:12 -0700
From: Balor <[email protected]>
To: <[email protected]>
The friends I was seeing in Louisiana was actually a girl I have been
seeing on and off for the last few years....we are trying to work things
out.
Balor
WI
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ICQ History Log For:
Balor
Started on Sun May 21 13:31:04 2000
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WI 7/10/99 6:35 PM hi busy?
Balor 7/11/99 11:30 PM hey
WI 7/11/99 11:30 PM hey to you
Balor 7/11/99 11:31 PM what ya doin?
WI 7/11/99 11:32 PM getting ready for bed and chking email
Balor 7/11/99 11:32 PM ahhh...that's cool
WI 7/11/99 11:32 PM why?
Balor 7/11/99 11:33 PM well I suppose it's not cool.... :)
so how is everything?
WI 7/11/99 11:34 PM okay
you?
you might have ment that it was cool that i
was getting ready for bed on account of the
fact that you have a one track mind
Balor 7/11/99 11:35 PM actually
I am pretty exhausted from fishing
all day long...not thinkin real straight
WI 7/11/99 11:36 PM how does one get exhausted from fishing all
day.....unless there was a beer or two
involved :)
Balor 7/11/99 11:36 PM nope no beer...just
3 lakes, 2 rivers and a
pond
WI 7/11/99 11:37 PM wow you moved around alot !
Balor 7/11/99 11:39 PM yup :)
WI 7/11/99 11:40 PM so what cha doin now?
Balor 7/11/99 11:40 PM being exhausted
WI 7/11/99 11:40 PM giggles
maybe you should get ready for bed too
Balor 7/11/99 11:41 PM maybe I should
WI 7/11/99 11:42 PM did you hear about that guy who killed himself
with the chainsaw?
Balor 7/11/99 11:42 PM no
WI 7/11/99 11:43 PM he was from MO and she was from Main,
they
connected on the web via chat rooms
Balor 7/11/99 11:44 PM what does that have to do with a chainsaw?
WI 7/11/99 11:46 PM he moved to maine to be with her, but she
decided to stop the relationship, so he went
to her house and to prove his love for her, he
went to his car and got the chainsaw and
preceded to cut his own throat with it and
bled to death on her lawn
Balor 7/11/99 11:47 PM he has problems...err....had
WI 7/11/99 11:47 PM real life..happened last week...was all over
the news
scary huh?
Balor 7/11/99 11:47 PM yeah that is
WI 7/11/99 11:48 PM makes ya wonder just who you are talking to
:)
Balor 7/11/99 11:48 PM yeah it does
WI 7/11/99 11:49 PM i can tell you are tired
you like weird al?
Balor 7/11/99 11:49 PM yeah some of his stuff is pretty funny
WI 7/11/99 11:49 PM some yes
Balor 7/11/99 11:50 PM like the one I sent ya :)
WI 7/11/99 11:50 PM looking at it now
Balor 7/11/99 11:50 PM :)
WI 7/11/99 11:51 PM yep
WI 7/12/99 12:11 AM youre not upset with me in anyway are you?
WI 7/12/99 12:15 AM ill take that as a yes
WI 7/12/99 12:19 AM maybe sometime soon you will let me tell you
what is going on...
with me
good night Balor
Balor 7/12/99 11:33 PM Hi
WI 7/12/99 11:35 PM hi to you
Balor 7/12/99 11:35 PM how are you doin?
WI 7/12/99 11:36 PM looking for cool desktop themes at tucow.com
Balor 7/12/99 11:36 PM ahhhh....I see
WI 7/12/99 11:36 PM and was looking for a skin for ICQ
Balor 7/12/99 11:37 PM cool...anything in particular
WI 7/12/99 11:38 PM trying to find the right one, i am picky
i would like a feminine theme...fairies,
fantasy...
Balor 7/12/99 11:39 PM I see :)
some fairly sentimental one huh?
WI 7/12/99 11:40 PM i wanted one that represents me...what i am
like....couldnt make a choice though
Balor 7/12/99 11:42 PM ahhh...brb
WI 7/12/99 11:43 PM gotta go soon, very tired tonight, but i will
wait for you
Balor 7/12/99 11:49 PM ok am back
WI 7/12/99 11:53 PM hi
Balor 7/12/99 11:53 PM took awhile :(
WI 7/12/99 11:54 PM what did?
Balor 7/12/99 11:54 PM you coming back
WI 7/12/99 11:56 PM was watching screen while i folded laundry
but
i guess when screensaver is on messages dont
come thru
Balor 7/12/99 11:56 PM nope...they
don't :(
WI 7/12/99 11:57 PM didnt know that....now i do
Balor 7/12/99 11:57 PM :)
learn something everyday
WI 7/12/99 11:58 PM i try
did you get last nights messages?
Balor 7/12/99 11:58 PM no don't think I did
WI 7/12/99 11:59 PM you must have...sent them few min after weird
al website
Balor 7/12/99 11:59 PM then I did...I
thought you were talking after
I went to bed
WI 7/13/99 12:01 AM no reply then? or just not ready
to get into
it right now?
its okay i am too tired to talk about it right
now anyway
WI 7/13/99 12:02 AM i know....women always want to have heart
to
heart talks
it is in our nature
Balor 7/13/99 12:02 AM no I'm not upset at you...
and I do want to know what is going on with
you :)
Balor 7/13/99 12:03 AM yeah it's ok... :)
WI 7/13/99 12:03 AM i am all female :)
maybe tomarrow then....i will try to let it
all hang out so to speak
Balor 7/13/99 12:04 AM but you are too tired now :(
WI 7/13/99 12:05 AM and have a headache...didnt get much sleep
last night
thinking about you....
Balor 7/13/99 12:05 AM ahhhh....the headache excuse :)
WI 7/13/99 12:06 AM funny funny
dont you get a headache on account of lack of
sleep?
Balor 7/13/99 12:06 AM not usually :)
WI 7/13/99 12:07 AM i do and i never use that
as an
excuse....in fact i never use that as an
excuse :)
Balor 7/13/99 12:07 AM excuse for what?
WI 7/13/99 12:08 AM ha ha
you know what!!
Balor 7/13/99 12:08 AM explain :)
WI 7/13/99 12:09 AM cant tonight...
i know what you want...
I know what guys want, i know what guys
like...it is a song
Balor 7/13/99 12:09 AM so sing :)
WI 7/13/99 12:10 AM you have to let me go get some sleep...i wish
that i didnt need it but....
Balor 7/13/99 12:10 AM ok...get
some sleep.....I'll talk to ya
tomorrow
WI 7/13/99 12:11 AM sorry to cut you off...please know that i
dont
want to
Balor 7/13/99 12:11 AM I know :)
go get some rest ...before I have to spank you
WI 7/13/99 12:12 AM ooooohhhhhh dont tempt me !!!
Balor 7/13/99 12:12 AM LOL...who is tempting?
WI 7/13/99 12:12 AM giggles
night :)
Balor 7/13/99 12:12 AM g'niote :)
WI 7/13/99 12:13 AM nite :)
WI 7/14/99 8:02 PM hey you!!
Busy?
Balor 7/14/99 8:05 PM yup :)
WI 7/14/99 8:06 PM sorry to hear that :)
talk when you can
Balor 7/14/99 8:06 PM ok...miss ya
WI 7/14/99 8:06 PM miss you too....
will be waiting for you
Balor 12/28/99 6:28 PM hi
WI 12/28/99 6:28 PM hi to you
Balor 12/28/99 6:29 PM how are things?
WI 12/28/99 6:30 PM good and you?
Balor 12/28/99 6:30 PM not bad :)
WI 12/28/99 6:31 PM can you update me on what has been going on?
Balor 12/28/99 6:31 PM if there was something to update :)
WI 12/28/99 6:32 PM what happened with heather? that was her name
right?
Balor 12/28/99 6:32 PM she is gone
WI 12/28/99 6:32 PM out of your life? or moved away?
Balor 12/28/99 6:32 PM out of life :)
WI 12/28/99 6:33 PM you okay?
Balor 12/28/99 6:33 PM yup am fine
WI 12/28/99 6:33 PM any new lovers in your life?
Balor 12/28/99 6:33 PM nope not a one :(
WI 12/28/99 6:33 PM sorry to hear that
Balor 12/28/99 6:34 PM it's no biggie :0
WI 12/28/99 6:35 PM you are not dwelling on it anymore?
just
waiting for the right one to fall into your
lap?
Balor 12/28/99 6:35 PM pretty much
WI 12/28/99 6:36 PM how is work ? are you busy trying to
get
everthing in order for the year end?
Balor 12/28/99 6:36 PM oh I am unemployed now too
WI 12/28/99 6:36 PM what?
Balor 12/28/99 6:37 PM I am unemployed
WI 12/28/99 6:37 PM i heard that silly, but why?
Balor 12/28/99 6:37 PM he couldn't afford to pay me anymore
WI 12/28/99 6:38 PM i thought business was booming, what
are you
doing now?
Balor 12/28/99 6:38 PM sittin on my butt till the new year
WI 12/28/99 6:39 PM not getting depressed are you?
Balor 12/28/99 6:39 PM nope....not at all :)
WI 12/28/99 6:39 PM so what are your plans?
Balor 12/28/99 6:39 PM find me another job after the first
WI 12/28/99 6:40 PM what kind? same old same old or
are you in
the mood for something new?
Balor 12/28/99 6:40 PM something different in the computer field
WI 12/28/99 6:41 PM like?
Balor 12/28/99 6:41 PM don't know yet
WI 12/28/99 6:41 PM not going to move are you?
Balor 12/28/99 6:41 PM why would I move?
WI 12/28/99 6:43 PM i thought that maybe you might want to start
fresh in a bigger city, are there many
prospects in that town?
Balor 12/28/99 6:43 PM so what has been going on with you?
Balor 12/28/99 6:43 PM yeah plenty here:)
WI 12/28/99 6:44 PM moved in the new house, i just love it.
trying to keep things honest between Eilene
and myself
Balor 12/28/99 6:44 PM that's cool.....it working out ok?
WI 12/28/99 6:45 PM so far, still second guessing a little, but
she is trying
Balor 12/28/99 6:45 PM that's cool
WI 12/28/99 6:47 PM just little things that i question, she
answers all my questions though without
getting angry
Balor 12/28/99 6:47 PM good
WI 12/28/99 6:50 PM sorry about that ....lost my connection
Balor 12/28/99 6:50 PM i saw that
WI 12/28/99 6:51 PM have you tried yahoo voice chat? my
mom and I
tried it, its cool
Balor 12/28/99 6:51 PM nope havent tried it at all
WI 12/28/99 6:52 PM want to ? then you could hear me
Balor 12/28/99 6:52 PM I'd have to install it and al that
WI 12/28/99 6:52 PM why did you get rid of it?
Balor 12/28/99 6:53 PM reinstalled all my software
WI 12/28/99 6:53 PM i am doing the same on the acer, using the
nec
right now
Balor 12/28/99 6:53 PM ahhh....
WI 12/28/99 6:54 PM what about that business you started on your
own?
Balor 12/28/99 6:55 PM my friend and I are still working on that
WI 12/28/99 6:55 PM cool...so what do you do all day?
Balor 12/28/99 6:55 PM this is it :)
WI 12/28/99 6:56 PM talking to women on the internet? :)
Balor 12/28/99 6:56 PM not really....not
lookin right now...would
like one though
WI 12/28/99 6:57 PM all day you talk to women on the
internet????????
Balor 12/28/99 6:57 PM no...not nearly
WI 12/28/99 6:58 PM giggles...
Balor 12/28/99 6:58 PM I need a woman though
but it seems only married ones like me these
days
WI 12/28/99 6:59 PM giggles...the ones that are not married are
too shy to approach you.
Balor 12/28/99 6:59 PM I suppose
WI 12/28/99 6:59 PM you dont need a woman, you just want one
to.....
Balor 12/28/99 7:00 PM LOL...I need a woman :)
WI 12/28/99 7:00 PM giggles
Balor 12/28/99 7:00 PM LOL...know any single ones?
WI 12/28/99 7:00 PM not ones decent enough to send to you
Balor 12/28/99 7:01 PM let me see if they are decent enough :)
WI 12/28/99 7:01 PM i have set high standards for you
Balor 12/28/99 7:02 PM why?
WI 12/28/99 7:02 PM because you deserve better
Balor 12/28/99 7:03 PM ok :)
WI 12/28/99 7:03 PM so are you going to download yahoo?
Balor 12/28/99 7:03 PM prolly eventually :)
WI 12/28/99 7:04 PM just for me???????
Balor 12/28/99 7:04 PM hmmm....
WI 12/28/99 7:04 PM hmmmmm????
Balor 12/28/99 7:07 PM so what single women do you know?
WI 12/28/99 7:07 PM none really, and the very few (of which i
cant
think of any) are not for you
Balor 12/28/99 7:08 PM how so?
WI 12/28/99 7:09 PM why do you suppose they are single? and like
i
said i cant think of any single women at the
moment
Balor 12/28/99 7:10 PM ahhh....I see
WI 12/28/99 7:11 PM why did you change your user name?
Balor 12/28/99 7:11 PM I couldn't remember what it was
WI 12/28/99 7:12 PM your user name?
Balor 12/28/99 7:12 PM yeah :)
WI 12/28/99 7:12 PM giggles
Balor 12/28/99 7:12 PM why you giggling?
WI 12/28/99 7:13 PM you do that to me
Balor 12/28/99 7:13 PM do what?
Balor 12/28/99 7:24 PM Install that when you get it
WI 12/28/99 7:26 PM done
Balor 12/28/99 7:28 PM you confused?
WI 12/28/99 7:28 PM a little i keep hearing a door bell
Balor 12/28/99 7:28 PM any windows pop up?
WI 12/28/99 7:29 PM yes my homepage your home page
took me to
pyp
Balor 12/28/99 7:29 PM ok how about this....goto my ICQ homepage
Balor 12/28/99 7:29 PM the ICQ homepage
WI 12/28/99 7:31 PM tellin me that i need a plugin from netscape
Balor 12/28/99 7:31 PM what plugin?
WI 12/28/99 7:33 PM a netscape plugin when i click on the shortcut
put on my desktop by what you sent me
Balor 12/28/99 7:33 PM did you close netscape and restart it?
WI 12/28/99 7:34 PM no should i?
Balor 12/28/99 7:34 PM yeah
WI 12/28/99 7:34 PM k
WI 12/28/99 7:35 PM says i still need it
Balor 12/28/99 7:36 PM now doubleclick
on the "My ICQ Homepage"
shortcut
WI 12/28/99 7:36 PM k
Balor 12/28/99 7:36 PM maybe you should go get the plugin
WI 12/28/99 7:37 PM also says that the page is not available when
i say yes i want the plug in
Balor 12/28/99 7:50 PM use that shortcut on your desktop now
WI 12/28/99 7:51 PM did netscape says i need
a plug in tells
me to click here and when i do, it says there
is a problem with the url
Balor 12/28/99 7:51 PM what version of netscape is it?
WI 12/28/99 7:53 PM 4.61
Balor 12/28/99 7:53 PM hmmm....strange
WI 12/28/99 7:53 PM was there something i missed?
Balor 12/28/99 7:53 PM I don't think so
WI 12/28/99 7:58 PM it is telling me that i need the hearme plugin
Balor 12/28/99 7:59 PM ok....goto
netscape.com to see if you can find
it there
WI 12/28/99 7:59 PM k
WI 12/28/99 8:16 PM can i download voice presence to the icq file?
Balor 12/28/99 8:16 PM where did you find that?
WI 12/28/99 8:17 PM on the bottom of the little window that keeps
popping up telling me to get the plug in
Balor 12/28/99 8:17 PM ok then get that :)
WI 12/28/99 8:17 PM but can i download it to c:\programfiles\icq?
Balor 12/28/99 8:18 PM sure :)
WI 12/28/99 8:27 PM wont let me go to your user home page
Balor 12/28/99 8:28 PM why?
WI 12/28/99 8:28 PM not responding
Balor 12/28/99 8:28 PM hmmm...weird
WI 12/28/99 8:29 PM unable to connect it says
Balor 12/28/99 8:30 PM weird
WI 12/28/99 8:30 PM lets me get to your patheon....
Balor 12/28/99 8:30 PM hmm....did you goto the ICQ homepage?
WI 12/28/99 8:31 PM that is the one that says network error
Balor 12/28/99 8:31 PM hmmm....hang on
Balor 12/28/99 8:52 PM try that page now
WI 12/28/99 8:52 PM yours?
Balor 12/28/99 8:52 PM yup
WI 12/28/99 8:53 PM nope
Balor 12/28/99 8:54 PM now doubleclick
on the shortcut on your
desktop
WI 12/28/99 8:54 PM i did
Balor 12/28/99 8:55 PM hmmm...something is not right
WI 12/28/99 8:55 PM i agree
Balor 12/30/99 1:45 AM heya
WI 12/30/99 1:49 AM downloading updates right now, but i took
the
day off tomarrow, will you be around?
Balor 12/30/99 1:49 AM yup...i'll be here
WI 12/30/99 1:49 AM i will talk to you then okay?
Balor 12/30/99 1:50 AM ok :)
WI 12/30/99 1:50 AM ;)
WI 2/9/00 9:13 PM whoops hit the wrong button
bye Balor
Balor 2/9/00 9:14 PM ok bye :)
WI 2/9/00 9:14 PM see you in the near future prolly this week
Balor 2/9/00 9:14 PM ok cool :)
Balor 2/11/00 9:37 PM hi
WI 2/11/00 9:38 PM hey! you okay?
Balor 2/11/00 9:38 PM yup...why?
WI 2/11/00 9:39 PM thought (i know its silly) you logged
out on
account of me
Balor 2/11/00 9:39 PM nope not at all
WI 2/11/00 9:40 PM so what are you doing ?
Balor 2/11/00 9:41 PM not much...you?
WI 2/11/00 9:42 PM came home from work, walked 3 miles,
picked up
nickie from karate and delivered her to her
girlfriends house for the night
Balor 2/11/00 9:42 PM cool
WI 2/11/00 9:44 PM why cool and which one?
Balor 2/11/00 9:45 PM that
ya got off work....so no plans for the
night?
WI 2/11/00 9:47 PM giggles
was asked to go to a friends to watch a movie,
but passed, too tired
maybe eilene went anyway, was her friend from
work and she is late coming home
Balor 2/11/00 9:48 PM oh ok.....so we are both home alone
WI 2/11/00 9:48 PM yes
Balor 2/11/00 9:49 PM what shall we do?
WI 2/11/00 9:49 PM any ideas?
Balor 2/11/00 9:49 PM well you are currently involved
Balor 2/11/00 9:50 PM yes always
Bev
Bev 2/4/00 10:45
PM what's up?
Balor 2/4/00 10:45 PM nodda
Bev 2/4/00 10:45
PM nodda??
Balor 2/4/00 10:46 PM nothin
Bev 2/4/00 10:46
PM really?
Balor 2/4/00 10:46 PM really
Bev 2/4/00 10:47
PM hmm
Bev 2/4/00 10:49
PM so what's been going on over there this evening?
Balor 2/4/00 10:49 PM not
a thing...no beer nothin
Bev 2/4/00 10:50
PM I take it you wanted some?
Balor 2/4/00 10:50 PM not
particularly....well wait...wanted some what?
Bev 2/4/00 10:51
PM LOL.....I meant beer....but what are YOU thinking of?
Balor 2/4/00 10:51 PM LOL....nothin
apparently :)
Bev 2/4/00 10:51
PM apparently? why?
Balor 2/4/00 10:52 PM well
I am alone after all
Bev 2/4/00 10:52
PM you too? :)
Balor 2/4/00 10:52 PM yup...I
suppose I could use some beer
Bev 2/4/00 10:53
PM oh?
Balor 2/4/00 10:53 PM yeah...but
I am broke as usual
Bev 2/4/00 10:53
PM why?
Balor 2/4/00 10:54 PM rent
time
Bev 2/4/00 10:55
PM wasn't that week before last's chk and last week's chk?
Balor 2/4/00 10:55 PM I got
last weeks check today
Bev 2/4/00 10:56
PM what's happened to this week's?
Balor 2/4/00 10:56 PM beats
me
Bev 2/4/00 10:56
PM hmm.....bummer
Balor 2/4/00 10:56 PM yup
Bev 2/4/00 10:57
PM you regret buying that cam now? :(
Balor 2/4/00 10:57 PM kinda
yeah
Bev 2/4/00 10:58
PM yeah :( have you used it much?
Balor 2/4/00 10:59 PM somewhat
Bev 2/4/00 10:59
PM oh yeah? with who?
Balor 2/4/00 10:59 PM myself
Bev 2/4/00 11:00
PM and?
Balor 2/4/00 11:00 PM no
one else
Bev 2/4/00 11:00
PM oh....how about when you had that room in MPlayer?
Balor 2/4/00 11:01 PM nope...not
even then
Bev 2/4/00 11:01
PM why not?
Balor 2/4/00 11:01 PM why
should I?
Bev 2/4/00 11:02
PM you had it....figured that would be the place to use it :)
Balor 2/4/00 11:02 PM naaa...no
need to show my face all over the place
Bev 2/4/00 11:03
PM who was it in there with you then?
Balor 2/4/00 11:04 PM just
a friend showing me the cam they got
Bev 2/4/00 11:04
PM oh? who?
Balor 2/4/00 11:04 PM awful
nosey aren't ya
Bev 2/4/00 11:04
PM yep....:)
Bev 2/4/00 11:09
PM why can't I know? why is it a secret? I bet I'm probly the only one
that you wouldn't tell if asked huh? this is what I meant about you telling
others more than you tell me....I don't understand
Balor 2/4/00 11:10 PM it's
just the 20 questions thing
Bev 2/4/00 11:10
PM as I said.....you don't volunteer information about yourself so I have
to ask.....duz anyone else have to do that? and do they get this reaction?
Balor 2/4/00 11:12 PM it
just makes me upset
Bev 2/4/00 11:13
PM what makes you upset?
Balor 2/4/00 11:13 PM the
prying
Bev 2/4/00 11:15
PM you consider it PRYING? we've been intimate but I can't know about any
other part of your life?....you used to consider me a friend also....this
duzn't seem like friendship ...I'm just a body to you? THAT upsets ME
Balor 2/4/00 11:16 PM no
you think there is somethin going on when there is nothing and you don't
believe it
Bev 2/4/00 11:18
PM I do? how do I?......yet at the same time, I don't have the right to
know anything.....?
Balor 2/4/00 11:18 PM I told
ya everything
Bev 2/4/00 11:19
PM you haven't told me ANYthing.....just that I don't have a right to know
anything......
Balor 2/4/00 11:19 PM I told
you I was in there with a friend....what else do you wanna know?
Bev 2/4/00 11:21
PM why it was such a secret at the time and since, that you couldn't tell
me then, if if was no big deal....
Balor 2/4/00 11:21 PM I did
tell ya...it's still no big deal
Bev 2/4/00 11:22
PM you told me nothing THEN.......I asked....you ignored
Balor 2/4/00 11:22 PM sorry
Bev 2/4/00 11:23
PM sorry for what?
Balor 2/4/00 11:23 PM for
ignoring you if I did
Bev 2/4/00 11:24
PM you know you did.....
Balor 2/4/00 11:25 PM I'm
sorry
Bev 2/4/00 11:26
PM and now.....cuz my feelings are hurt.....I have to ask, and then feel
like I've crossed that invisible line you keep putting up on me.....like
I'm the one trying to hide something....and I'm the one being completely
honest with you.....
Balor 2/4/00 11:27 PM I know...I'm
not hiding anything...I just get all edgy when people start askin me all
sorts of questions
Bev 2/4/00 11:29
PM I wouldn't have to ask if I thot you were being totally honest with
me, if I FELT like I had a RIGHT to know any more than the sex between
us
Balor 2/4/00 11:33 PM this
has nothin to do with sex
Bev 2/4/00 11:35
PM well, if I don't have the right to know anything else, that's all i
feel you want me for :(
Bev 2/4/00 11:45
PM sorry if this is an uncomfortable subject for you.....but it has to
be said.....you keep saying to take it day by day.....but I can't even
do that.....I have NO CLUE as to what's going on other than when we are
in bed....you give me nothing to go on....and I can't ask questions....what
am I supposed to think?
Bev 2/4/00 11:46
PM we used to be able to sit and talk forever here online....now you just
clam up
Balor 2/4/00 11:47 PM we
can still talk forever online
Bev 2/4/00 11:50
PM no ......you don't talk.....and when I try to start a convo....to get
it going....I have to ask questions.....one word answers on one end duz
not a conversation make.
Balor 2/4/00 11:51 PM hello?
I gotta run to the store right quick
Balor 2/4/00 11:51 PM I do
the one word thing alot I have noticed
Bev 2/4/00 11:52
PM so what conclusion can I possibly make of that? over a period of time?
Balor 2/4/00 11:52 PM it's
not just you that gets the one word thing....everyone does
Bev 2/4/00 11:53
PM fine....but I'm the one who's sleeping with you.....I AM the only one
aren't I?
Balor 2/4/00 11:58 PM yes
you are the only one
Balor 2/4/00 11:59 PM who
else could there be?
Bev 2/4/00 11:59
PM ok....so when you share that kind of time with someone w/o communication
it's bound to start getting screwed up......I'm fine with not being 'together'
if that's what you want as long as I have quality communication time so
I know where I stand and I know what to expect.....I don't if I don't have
a clue as to what the rest of your life holds or have anything to do with
any other part.....what is a person supposed to start thinking?
Balor 2/4/00 11:59 PM I don't
know
Balor 2/5/00 12:02 AM hello?
Bev 2/5/00 12:03
AM the only thing I know FOR SURE is that you are keeping the rest of your
life from me and don't want me to know about any other part and (or so
it seems with everything else) that I'm not worth taking out......I'm feeling
like I'm not worth your time except when you are horny
Balor 2/5/00 12:04 AM it's
not like that at all....I am just taking my life a day at a time right
now....no big rush into anything
Bev 2/5/00 12:07
AM and I understand that.....really I do....you can do that AND let someone
in to a certain extent to keep a trust going......if you don't let me in
to a certain extent....then you aren't being fair to me or yourself....cuz
I
HAVE NO CLUE other than what my imagination can conjure up
Balor 2/5/00 12:08 AM I know...and
I'm sorry.....I am trying to work on it
Bev 2/5/00 12:11
AM if all we end up being is playtoys for each other.....then so be it....as
long as there's trust and communication that supports that.....at the same
time I am only human and have feelings that WILL surface at times....but
that duzn't mean you have to go running scared....and vise versa.....
Bev 2/5/00 12:11
AM as long as there's communication on what is expected and what each of
us needs....then we will be fine......THEN if something DUZ come of it.....THEN
we go the next step....if not....well we at least were both clear on what
is expected from each other and needed as well
Bev 2/5/00 12:12
AM there's got to be FUN and CAREFREEness to it as some points w/o either
of us worrying what the other is thinking.....THAT's where the communication
comes in
Balor 2/5/00 12:12 AM true
Bev 2/5/00 12:13
AM HONESTY.....FULL HONESTY is paramount.....we both have dealt with enuf
lying I'm sure.....I
know I have.....I abhor it and am disgusted by it......honesty is ALWAYS
the best policy
Balor 2/5/00 12:14 AM I know
it is
Bev 2/5/00 12:15
AM we can have so much fun if you'd just let yourself and let me IN....I
am really a fun person......be fun WITH me.....hard to do on my own with
a 'stick in the mud' :)
Balor 2/5/00 12:16 AM LOL....true
Bev 2/5/00 12:16
AM SO WHO WAS IT!!!! :) damn it!!
Balor 2/5/00 12:17 AM is
it that important who it was??
Bev 2/5/00 12:17
AM no...it's the honesty and the openess and the willingness to trust in
an honest relationship
Balor 2/5/00 12:18 AM yes
I know that
Bev 2/5/00 12:19
AM so why is it so important it stay a secret? why was it needed to be
a secret in the first place?
Balor 2/5/00 12:19 AM it's
not really...I just wanna know why it's so important that you know
Bev 2/5/00 12:19
AM why is it so important I DON'T know???
Balor 2/5/00 12:21 AM it's
not the point of who or who it wasn't but the point is it's not important
either way
Bev 2/5/00 12:22
AM I don't like game playing either....it messes with people's heads and
that's what I feel like is happening now :(
Balor 2/5/00 12:22 AM no
it's not I am just making a point
Bev 2/5/00 12:24
AM I've already made mine and it duzn't include what you are trying to
do.....keep your secret and make me think it duzn't matter....cuz obviously
it duz or you would tell
me.....there's a reason you aren't telling me
Balor 2/5/00 12:25 AM LOL....is
there? it was just a friend I have talked to since last september...her
name is Crystal
feel better now?
Bev 2/5/00 12:25
AM and why did you feel it needed to be kept from me?
Balor 2/5/00 12:25 AM it
was the point of privacy
Bev 2/5/00 12:26
AM sure....call it what you want.....it duzn't change it
Balor 2/5/00 12:26 AM what
do ya mean?
Bev 2/5/00 12:31
AM you can tell me you are at Paula's house (the one small part I DO know
about your life),someone you told me before that you were in love with....but
you feel you need to keep 'private', a convo in a locked room that you
didn't bother telling me about....led me to think you were cruising rooms.....
Bev 2/5/00 12:31
AM AND told me you didn't want to do with
me....then did it with someone else....THEN ignored my question about
it.....THAT's not JUST what you are saying......I'm not that
naive anymore.....been there done that.....
Bev 2/5/00 12:31
AM if you really believe what you are
saying.....then it's worse than I thought
Balor 2/5/00 12:31 AM I didn't
do anything with anyone else
Balor 2/5/00 12:32 AM I am
really not in the modd right now for any kind of abuse
Bev 2/5/00 12:32
AM don't give me that Balor......been there done that too
Balor 2/5/00 12:33 AM fine
what do you want from me?
Bev 2/5/00 12:33
AM read back to our whole convo.....I think I said it pretty well......I
still don't know what you want from me....by the way
Balor 2/5/00 12:35 AM I don't
know exactly what I want
Bev 2/5/00 12:36
AM ok.....but in the mean time you want to be able to have sex with someone?
Balor 2/5/00 12:37 AM this
has nothing at all to do with sex...would you get that out of your head
Bev 2/5/00 12:37
AM how duz it NOT? that's the only thing we've shared....other than this
computer
Balor 2/5/00 12:38 AM if
I wanted you for just sex don't you think I'd have you come here all the
time to fuck?
Bev 2/5/00 12:42
AM no....only when you have time for
me......which sometimes....that's what it feels like :( so if it's
not just SEX.......what else have we shared?
Balor 2/5/00 12:42 AM how
many times have you been here and we have not had sex?
Bev 2/5/00 12:43
AM not many......
Balor 2/5/00 12:44 AM bullshit...I
would say the majority of times you have been here we haven't had sex
Bev 2/5/00 12:45
AM and most of those times it was about the computer or cigs
Balor 2/5/00 12:45 AM or
you just stopped by or we went somewhere etc etc
Bev 2/5/00 12:45
AM I'm not complaining about the amount of times.....I'm not......I just
want to FEEL wanted for more than that
Balor 2/5/00 12:46 AM and
you are
Bev 2/5/00 12:47
AM most of the times we didn't I was, not rushed out.....but I was given
the cold shoulder that you really would rather me not be there
Bev 2/5/00 12:47
AM am I?
Bev 2/5/00 12:47
AM thanks for saying so.....it's a start
Balor 2/5/00 12:48 AM yes
you are
Bev 2/5/00 12:51
AM actions do speak louder than words tho
too.......but I need the words to have a clue.....I don't read minds
yet.......haven't gotten that far......I want to feel
special....that I'm NOT invading your space and your world.....that
I'm kinda a PART of it.......
Balor 2/5/00 12:51 AM I so
much wanna be an ass and ask you "Hey wanna come over and have sex?"
Balor 2/5/00 12:52 AM you
are kinda a part of it
Bev 2/5/00 12:53
AM hehe....and ya know.....sometimes that would be ok :) IF I felt from
times before-hand that I was special and stuff.......like really treating
me good....then if you said that sometimes.....I'd be more than happy to
have some impromtu fun with you in the sac :)
Bev 2/5/00 12:54
AM am i kinda a part of it? but I don't FEEL it.......communication from
you and honesty would fix that :)
Balor 2/5/00 12:54 AM LOL....ok...
Balor 2/5/00 12:54 AM I'm
workin on the commo part
Bev 2/5/00 12:55
AM see what I mean? if you put some time and effort into ME than the fun
is SOOOOO easy :)and the carefreeness can be second nature.....I AM that
way when I feel that I'm MORE than that with no doubt in my mind :)
Balor 2/5/00 12:56 AM ok
:)hey I am tryin :)
Bev 2/5/00 12:57
AM :) I hope so....and I hope I actually SEE and FEEL it soon.....and
my 'soon' is like w/in hours not days or weeks....hehe WE COULD HAVE SO
MUCH DAMN CLEAN FUN!!!!!! OPEN UP TO ME.......I'm NOT a monster!!!!! :)
I SWEAR!!!!
Balor 2/5/00 12:58 AM LOL.....hours??
Bev 2/5/00 1:00
AM like I said....you have NO IDEA the layers of me you haven't seen
yet.......gotta be comfortable and APPRECIATED before they start to really
come out tho....I have to TRUST AND BE TRUSTED to really come out :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:00 AM
like what?
Bev 2/5/00 1:06
AM The carefreeness I felt I could be in Florida was a big peek at
what and who I really am.....cuz see....at the time I trusted him w/every
ounce of my being.....I had no reason not to.....there wasn't a time span
of learning to trust him....so I had a sort of fastforwarded view of what
I can be
like.....and I'm a Helluva lotta fun :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:06 AM
I see
Bev 2/5/00 1:08
AM so......tell me.......is there ANYTHING you can tell me that you
know I would've wanted to know about......that you didn't for whatever
reason? so we can start with TOTAL HONESTY??..........cuz I know there's
stuff you haven't told me that, to have trust....I have to know
Bev 2/5/00 1:09
AM think about it first k?
Bev 2/5/00 1:09
AM don't just pop up with a quick no.......really think on that one?
please?
Balor 2/5/00 1:09 AM
nothin off hand why? I have been invited to 3 different states
Bev 2/5/00 1:10
AM oh? and are you going ?
Balor 2/5/00 1:10 AM
naaa....no reason too
Bev 2/5/00 1:10
AM why's that?
Balor 2/5/00 1:11 AM
the only place I would consider going is Colorado
Bev 2/5/00 1:11
AM because of who's there or what's there?
Balor 2/5/00 1:12 AM
I friend of mine lives there...
Bev 2/5/00 1:12
AM a new friend? what were the other states?....I assume Colorado
was one of them ? :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:13 AM
Colorado, Arizona and Virginia
Bev 2/5/00 1:14
AM I take it all these invites were from women on the internet that
you've 'met' online?
Balor 2/5/00 1:14 AM
yup
Bev 2/5/00 1:16
AM thanks for telling me :)are you gonna take any of them up on it?
do any or all of them think you are?
Balor 2/5/00 1:16 AM
nope not a one
Bev 2/5/00 1:17
AM oh come on.....you haven't led any of them on thinking you were?
and btw....glad you aren't :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:17 AM
nope none of them...
Bev 2/5/00 1:18
AM ok....let me ask THIS way :) is there ANOTHER one or more
that you would answer yes to any of those questions......just not one of
the 'three' you are referring to here?? :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:19 AM
there is one girl I would say yes to if she asked
Bev 2/5/00 1:19
AM oh yeah ? she's not one of the 'three' ?
Balor 2/5/00 1:20 AM
no...there hasn't been an invite
Bev 2/5/00 1:20
AM oh right :) gotcha :)where is she?
Balor 2/5/00 1:20 AM
New York
Bev 2/5/00 1:21
AM oh wow.....long ways.....what's her name? or is it Chrystal?
Balor 2/5/00 1:21 AM
nope...Debbie
Bev 2/5/00 1:22
AM so if she asked, you would go w/o hesitation huh? she pretty hot
eh?
Balor 2/5/00 1:24 AM
I don't know for sure maybe later down the road
Bev 2/5/00 1:26
AM ok :) see I'm not going ballistic on you am I? and NO i'm not
a volcano waiting to explode...:) I'm ok with this.....it's understandable.....I've
flirted online this
whole time and have been asked out even....:)do they know you are kinda
seeing someone?
Balor 2/5/00 1:27 AM
no one asked
Bev 2/5/00 1:29
AM well.....ok......if they had asked if you were seeing someone
or had a girlfriend.....what would you have said? knowing you were being
'picked up' in a way ?
Balor 2/5/00 1:29 AM
I don't know really
Bev 2/5/00 1:31
AM cuz I probly didn't mention seeing someone either unless they
asked.....but I did tell whoever asked that I was sorta seeing somone but
didn't know how serious it was....that as far as I knew he wasn't....so
it was kinda casual
Balor 2/5/00 1:31 AM
ahhh....ok :)
Bev 2/5/00 1:32
AM you must have an idea what you mightve said :)tell me.......did
I have anything to do with your decision NOT to go to these places to meet
these women?
Balor 2/5/00 1:33 AM
some yes.....it would have to be damn
appealing for me to go anywhere
Bev 2/5/00 1:35
AM ok :)........so I hold enough appeal for you to not go.....for
the most part?
Balor 2/5/00 1:35 AM
yeah
Bev 2/5/00 1:36
AM REALLY? :)~ kewl....a little competition is healthy......but I
have to KNOW about it k?????????? LOL
Balor 2/5/00 1:36 AM
alright now ya know
Bev 2/5/00 1:37
AM anything else you could tell me??????hmmm????? :) before we start
from scratch at being TOTALLY HONEST??? :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:37 AM
nothin else off hand
Bev 2/5/00 1:39
AM ok......I think there's probly more but you are 'male' so .....LOL......you
can tell me later ......and you WILL....right? :)PLEASE.....:) ?
Balor 2/5/00 1:40 AM
what more could there be??
Bev 2/5/00 1:42
AM I have not a clue.....only you would know :)but I'm sooo glad
you told me this much so far......you see.....my ego has been bruised and
now that I have some info that I am at least partly credited for you staying
here and not meeting these women......hehe.....it gives me a bit of an
ego boost...... I'm sure it has something to do with the neanderthal in
us all....hehe......:)
Balor 2/5/00 1:43 AM
LOL...it prolly does :)
Bev 2/5/00 1:44
AM are you feeling a bit more relieved or duz this exchange of info
make any difference to you?
Balor 2/5/00 1:44 AM
a bit relieved
Bev 2/5/00 1:45
AM good.....what would help you be a bit more? and why do you think
it's just a bit? :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:46 AM
I don't know :)it's a start I guess
Bev 2/5/00 1:47
AM are you worried that I will read more into things or not enough?
either way?
Balor 2/5/00 1:47 AM
yeah...prolly more
Bev 2/5/00 1:51
AM I can understand that.....I think we both worry about that.....more
you cuz of my ego being bashed lately.......but when I know what's what
about ALL......that should go away:) I am very aloof when comfortable with
what's happening....one of my faults...I've been told......:) so when I'm
secure that I know what I need to and feel wanted and appreciated....I
let go and let be....MUCH more :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:54 AM
alrighty :)
Bev 2/5/00 1:56
AM had to think about that one a lot? or did you suddenly get busy?
Balor 2/5/00 1:57 AM
I got about a million messages
Bev 2/5/00 1:58
AM really? well....I'll let you answer
them....gotta go have a cig.....wanna talk on the phone?
Balor 2/5/00 1:58 AM
sure
Bev 2/5/00 1:59
AM REALLY? ok :) kewl :)
Balor 2/5/00 1:59 AM
:)
Bev 2/5/00 1:59
AM I'll call ya when I get outside?
Balor 2/5/00 1:59 AM ok
Bev 2/5/00 2:00
AM okie dokie :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:19
AM slowin down yet?
Balor 2/5/00 2:19 AM
a tad
Bev 2/5/00 2:20
AM all women right? :) hehe
Balor 2/5/00 2:20 AM
I don't talk to guys
Bev 2/5/00 2:21
AM LOL.....ok :) hehe
Balor 2/5/00 2:21 AM
fell better?
Bev 2/5/00 2:21
AM yes :)
Balor 2/5/00 2:21 AM
ok
Bev 2/5/00 2:21
AM you?
Balor 2/5/00 2:22 AM
some yes :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:22
AM some? that's a start :)
Balor 2/5/00 2:23 AM
yeah it's somethin ain't it :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:23
AM yes it is :)
Balor 2/5/00 2:23 AM
LOL...I'm tryin :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:24
AM I'm glad.....me too :)
Balor 2/5/00 2:24 AM
good :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:25
AM so maybe now we can really start having fun w/o worrying about
all this crap that we don't need to worry about :)
Balor 2/5/00 2:25 AM
yeah maybe....
Bev 2/5/00 2:26
AM LOL.....MAYBE!!????? Come on now :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:55
AM ok....so when do we celebrate this new found freedom we have now
with each other? and kick it off :) ? hmm?
Balor 2/5/00 2:55 AM
I don't know :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:56
AM you have to know that first :) right?
Balor 2/5/00 2:56 AM
I have to know what first
Bev 2/5/00 2:57
AM when we kick it off with a boost to my ego to get me going :)
you know...so you can have a chance at making me feel special :) hehe
Balor 2/5/00 2:58 AM
ok :)
Bev 2/5/00 2:58
AM ok :)
Balor 2/5/00 2:58 AM
what do ya wanna do first?
Bev 2/5/00 2:59
AM what HAVE I wanted to do? :)
Balor 2/5/00 3:00 AM
tell me
Bev 2/5/00 3:00
AM do I HAVE too.....?????? :(
Balor 2/5/00 3:00 AM
yes
Bev 2/5/00 3:02
AM :( I want to have a very nice time OUT first :) it's what
a girl needs to feel special....:)
Balor 2/5/00 3:02 AM
I know that part
Bev 2/5/00 3:03
AM ok then....you know :)
Balor 2/5/00 3:05 AM
LOL
Bev 2/5/00 3:05
AM remember????? :)
Balor 2/5/00 3:05 AM
what do you wanna do though?
Bev 2/5/00 3:05
AM I thought you already had it planned?
Balor 2/5/00 3:06 AM
not yet
Bev 2/5/00 3:07
AM you've given me the impression you have :)the ball is in your
court so to speak :)
Balor 2/5/00 3:09 AM
LOL...I see
Bev 2/5/00 3:09
AM ok :) so I'll hear from you when? and what?
Balor 2/5/00 3:10 AM
when I wake up
Bev 2/5/00 3:10
AM LOL LOL......anxious....that's good :) hehe
Balor 2/5/00 3:11 AM
is it?
Bev 2/5/00 3:11
AM well......to START it is anyway :) hehe
Balor 2/5/00 3:11 AM
LOL...ok :)
Bev 2/5/00 3:12
AM LOL.....:)
Bev 2/5/00 3:17
AM I gotta get to beddy bye.....
Balor 2/5/00 3:19 AM
have sweet dreams
Bev 2/5/00 3:19
AM sweet dreams to you too :)do you remember yours?
Balor 2/5/00 3:20 AM
sometimes
Bev 2/5/00 1:33
PM you up?
Bev 2/5/00 2:00
PM up yet? :)
Balor 2/5/00 8:58 PM
hi
Bev 2/5/00 8:58
PM hey there :)
Balor 2/5/00 8:59 PM
hi
Bev 2/5/00 8:59
PM hi LOL
Balor 2/5/00 8:59 PM
what's up?
Bev 2/5/00 8:59
PM just got home :) u?
Balor 2/5/00 8:59 PM
just sittin here
Bev 2/5/00 9:00
PM uh huh :)
Bev 2/5/00 9:04
PM whats been going on all day for you?
Balor 2/5/00 9:04 PM
not much
Bev 2/5/00 9:05
PM hmm....what's 'not much' hehe
Balor 2/5/00 9:05 PM
paid rent was about it
Bev 2/5/00 9:06
PM oh ok....so nothing since I left eh? :) did you get this last
weeks chk?
Balor 2/5/00 9:06 PM
not yet :(
Bev 2/5/00 9:06
PM you can call in 3 hrs to claim this next weeks chk...did you know
that?
Balor 2/5/00 9:08 PM
nope
Bev 2/5/00 9:08
PM you didn't? yeah....their week is from Sun to Sat.....so as soon
as the week is over in their computers....you can call in your claim :)
Balor 2/5/00 9:08 PM
cool :)
Bev 2/5/00 9:09
PM hehe
Balor 2/5/00 9:09 PM
I'll be in bed by that time
Bev 2/5/00 9:09
PM you will? why?
Balor 2/5/00 9:09 PM
am tired
Bev 2/5/00 9:11
PM was practically falling asleep over at
Tamara's watching tv.....was watching about casino's and gambling....makes
me want to go to Vegas or Reno or indian casino or somthing...hehe
Balor 2/5/00 9:11 PM
LOL...not me I don't gamble
Bev 2/5/00 9:11
PM really? why? :)
Balor 2/5/00 9:11 PM
just don't like it
Bev 2/5/00 9:12
PM really? wow.....don't hear that very much :)......Have you ever
tryed?
Balor 2/5/00 9:12 PM
yup...didn't like it
Bev 2/5/00 9:13
PM hmmm....only once? where? maybe somthing was wrong with the trip
itself ??
Balor 2/5/00 9:13 PM
nope...just didn't like it
Bev 2/5/00 9:14
PM oh ok :)was it in Vegas or something?
Balor 2/5/00 9:14 PM
nope...just was gambling
Bev 2/5/00 9:15
PM COME ON!!!!! where? at a bar? here in town? GGGEEEEEZ!!
Balor 2/5/00 9:16 PM
geez...it was when I was in the Army...you wouldn't know the place
Bev 2/5/00 9:17
PM ok fine....!! GEEZ....:) just curious as to what your experience
was GEEEZ...!!
Balor 2/5/00 9:18 PM
LOL
Bev 2/5/00 9:19
PM WELL!!?? :)
Bev 2/5/00 9:25
PM shhhhhhhhhh you busy?
Balor 2/5/00 9:25 PM
not really...why?
Bev 2/5/00 9:26
PM you were being really quiet is all :)
Balor 2/5/00 9:26 PM
sorry
Bev 2/5/00 9:27
PM :)
Bev 2/5/00 10:28
PM whatcha doin?
Balor 2/5/00 10:28 PM nothin
you?
Bev 2/5/00 10:28
PM surfin....:)
Balor 2/5/00 10:29 PM cool
:)
Bev 2/5/00 10:29
PM what are you doin on yer puter?
Balor 2/5/00 10:30 PM smokin
and sittin here
Bev 2/6/00 12:14
AM you just can't shut up can ya ? lol :)
Balor 2/6/00 12:28 AM LOL...nitey
nite
Bev 2/6/00 12:28
AM going to bed? me too :)
Bev 2/6/00 12:29
AM nitey nite....sweet dreams.....:)
Bev 2/6/00 12:31
AM hello?
Balor 2/6/00 7:44 PM
hi
Bev 2/6/00 7:44
PM hello :) whatcha doin?
Balor 2/6/00 7:44 PM
sittin here chattin
Bev 2/6/00 7:45
PM yeah? me too
Balor 2/6/00 7:46 PM
cool :)
Bev 2/6/00 7:46
PM so what has your day consisted of?
Balor 2/6/00 7:46 PM
chatting...and well chatting
Bev 2/6/00 7:47
PM ah...anything fun or interesting?
Balor 2/6/00 7:47 PM
not really
Bev 2/6/00 7:48
PM hmm.....bummer
Balor 2/6/00 7:49 PM
yuppers.....
Bev 2/6/00 7:51
PM :)
Bev 2/6/00 8:06
PM did you call in your claim yet?
Balor 2/6/00 8:06 PM
yup...sure did
Bev 2/6/00 8:07
PM good job :).....thot I'd remind you just in case :)
Balor 2/6/00 8:07 PM
LOL....I got it
Bev 2/6/00 8:07
PM :)
Bev 2/6/00 10:45
PM you in a good mood?
Balor 2/6/00 10:46 PM yeah
why?
Bev 2/6/00 10:46
PM just wondering....hard to tell thru typing when you aren't talking much
:)
Balor 2/6/00 10:46 PM that's
true
Bev 2/7/00 2:31
AM still up?
Balor 2/7/00 2:32 AM
yeah
Bev 2/7/00 2:32
AM what or who is keeping YOU up this late ?:)
Balor 2/7/00 2:33 AM
I'm downloading software :0
Bev 2/7/00 2:34
AM oh....I'm downloading songs :)
Bev 2/7/00 2:34
AM and chatting at the same time.....but man I gotta get to bed....EEEKS......gotta
have a cig first tho :)
Balor 2/7/00 2:35 AM
cool :)
Balor 2/7/00 2:35 AM
LOL...ok
Bev 2/7/00 2:37
AM yeah....I was hoping you were still
up.....that you wouldn't have gone to bed w/o saying good night or
nighty night or sweet dreams or ANYTHING.....hehe
Balor 2/7/00 2:38 AM
I would said somethin
Bev 2/7/00 2:39
AM I know :)
Bev 2/7/00 9:57
PM :) nite :)
Bev 2/7/00 10:15
PM still up?
Bev 2/7/00 10:17
PM ok....I just found out something that really is hurting me and I wanna
talk.....and it's not about you :) don't worry
Balor 2/7/00 10:28 PM what's
up?
Bev 2/7/00 10:29
PM you decide not to go to bed?
Balor 2/7/00 10:29 PM am
on the way
Balor 2/8/00 9:22 PM
ok so don't answer
Bev 2/8/00 9:34
PM huh?
Balor 2/8/00 9:34 PM
never mind
Bev 2/8/00 9:34
PM I didn't get a message from you ..... that one was the only one
Balor 2/8/00 9:35 PM
I said hi earlier
Bev 2/8/00 9:35
PM you did?.......I didn't get it....just looked in my history to
make sure....and nothing :(
Balor 2/8/00 9:36 PM
hmmm
Bev 2/8/00 9:36
PM I was beginning to think I wouldn't hear from you all day today
:)
Balor 2/8/00 9:37 PM
I messaged earlier
Bev 2/8/00 9:38
PM about when? I wonder if it was just before I got kicked off line?
was having problems with my connection earlier
Balor 2/8/00 9:38 PM
could have been
Bev 2/8/00 9:38
PM do you really think I would NOT message you back?
Balor 2/8/00 9:39 PM
I don't know what was going on
Bev 2/8/00 9:39
PM what do you mean?
Balor 2/8/00 9:40 PM
been strange things happening
Bev 2/8/00 9:40
PM like what?
Balor 2/8/00 9:40 PM
a big part of the net went down for awhile today
Balor 2/8/00 10:17 PM sure
Bev 2/8/00 10:17
PM ok
Bev 2/8/00 10:19
PM I take it you'll be asking me a question soon?
Balor 2/8/00 10:20 PM not
till I have some freakin money
Bev 2/8/00 10:20
PM ok
Bev 2/8/00 10:43
PM hello?? :(
Balor 2/8/00 10:43 PM I'm
here
Bev 2/8/00 10:48
PM I didn't mean that last question, like I think you took it, like
I expected it now.......it was just putting it OUT there to see if the
answer would be yes, is ALL :(
Balor 2/8/00 10:48 PM what
question?
Bev 2/8/00 10:51
PM the one I thought you took wrong..... nevermind
Balor 2/8/00 10:51 PM what
question?
Bev 2/8/00 10:55
PM where I asked if you'd be asking me a question soon.......you came back
with an answer that sounded like you were mad that I asked
Balor 2/8/00 10:55 PM I'll
ask when I am ready
Balor 2/9/00 3:51 PM
I got a check today :)
Bev 2/9/00 3:51
PM did ya? this weeks or last?
Balor 2/9/00 3:51 PM
last...I have to give my mom a bunch of it
Bev 2/9/00 3:52
PM why?
Balor 2/9/00 3:52 PM
she loaned me money for rent
Bev 2/9/00 3:52
PM but I thot the previous checks paid for your rent? ?
Balor 2/9/00 3:53 PM
was about 100 short
Bev 2/9/00 3:53
PM oh
Balor 2/9/00 3:53 PM
sucks
Bev 2/9/00 3:55
PM :(
Balor 2/9/00 3:55 PM
yeah it does
Balor 2/9/00 7:22 PM
hello?
Bev 2/9/00 7:23
PM hello :) whatcha doin?
Balor 2/9/00 7:23 PM
sittin here...you?
Bev 2/9/00 7:24
PM goin back and forth checking my napster downloads and doing laundry...:)
exciting huh?
Balor 2/9/00 7:24 PM
yuppers :)
Bev 2/9/00 7:24
PM so whatcha doin online? :)
Balor 2/9/00 7:25 PM
the usual
Bev 2/9/00 7:25
PM chatting on all your messaging programs?? :)
Balor 2/9/00 7:26 PM
not all of em
Bev 2/9/00 7:26
PM hehe....ok at least FireTalk and ICQ.....any others? hehehehe
Balor 2/9/00 7:27 PM
aol
Bev 2/9/00 7:27
PM oh yes....of course :) there you are :) hehehe
Balor 2/9/00 7:27 PM
lol
Balor 2/10/00 12:51 PM hi
Bev 2/10/00 12:51 PM
hi :)
Balor 2/10/00 12:51 PM how's it
goin?
Bev 2/10/00 12:51 PM
ok....and u?
Balor 2/10/00 12:52 PM alright...gettin
ready to leave
Bev 2/10/00 12:52 PM
oh....where ya goin?
Balor 2/10/00 12:53 PM bank
Bev 2/10/00 12:53 PM
walkin or is Paula takin ya ? :)
Balor 2/10/00 12:54 PM Paula is
taken me
Bev 2/10/00 12:55 PM
ok, talk to ya later then :)
Balor 2/10/00 12:55 PM see ya
Bev 2/10/00 12:56 PM
k :)
Balor 2/10/00 4:23 PM heya
Bev 2/10/00 4:24 PM
heya back :) whatcha doin now?
Balor 2/10/00 4:25 PM not
much went to the bank and a couple other places
Bev 2/10/00 4:32 PM
duz she know about us?
Balor 2/10/00 4:32 PM no
Bev 2/10/00 4:33 PM
oh
Bev 2/10/00 4:34 PM
she still there? oh probly not huh?
Balor 2/10/00 4:35 PM naaa...she
went home
Bev 2/10/00 4:35 PM
you don't want her to know about us eh?
Balor 2/10/00 4:36 PM no
reason to tell
Bev 2/10/00 4:36 PM
there isn't? oh
Balor 2/10/00 4:38 PM I'm
not one to kiss and tell
Bev 2/10/00 4:38 PM
ahh.....ok....whatever you say :)
Balor 2/10/00 4:39 PM LOL
Bev 2/10/00 4:39 PM
it's cuz you are in love with her huh? :)
Balor 2/10/00 4:40 PM what?
Bev 2/10/00 4:41 PM
aren't you?
Balor 2/10/00 4:41 PM why
do you ask?
Bev 2/10/00 4:42 PM
I don't know.....just opening up a line of communication I guess ....or
trying :)
Balor 2/10/00 4:42 PM LOL...ok
Bev 2/10/00 4:43 PM
well, you are saved by the bell......am going now to take my son to see
Stuart Little :)
Balor 2/10/00 4:45 PM ok...have
fun
Bev 2/10/00 4:45 PM
feelin pretty lucky right now? hehe
Balor 2/10/00 4:45 PM why?
Bev 2/10/00 4:46 PM
awww GEEEEZ.....never mind....gotta go :)talk to ya in a while :)
Balor 2/10/00 4:46 PM LOL....ok
bye
Bev 2/10/00 7:05 PM
that was a pretty good movie.....great chase scenes with the cats :)
Balor 2/10/00 7:06 PM LOL
Bev 2/10/00 8:29 PM
getting fickle ain't cha? hehe
Balor 2/10/00 8:29 PM huh?
Bev 2/10/00 8:30 PM
hehe.....you were going on and off ICQ like a ping pong ball :)
Balor 2/10/00 8:30 PM lol
Bev 2/10/00 8:31 PM
LOL.....what was happening? hehe
Balor 2/10/00 8:31 PM nothin
Bev 2/10/00 8:32 PM
?
Balor 2/10/00 8:32 PM nothin
Bev 2/10/00 8:32 PM
then why back and forth?
Balor 2/10/00 8:33 PM was
checkin somethin
Bev 2/10/00 8:33 PM
oh ok....on what? (having a confused look on her face) :)
Balor 2/10/00 8:34 PM hang
on
Bev 2/10/00 8:51 PM
this branch is beginning to break....I'm still holdin.....:)
Balor 2/10/00 8:51 PM what
do you mean??
Bev 2/10/00 8:51 PM
you told me to hold on :)
Balor 2/10/00 8:52 PM oh
ok :)
Bev 2/10/00 9:01 PM
branch is breaaaaaking......AAAAAAHHHHH (falling)
Bev 2/10/00 9:19 PM
you there? you forgot about me didn't ya? :(
:)
Balor 2/10/00 9:41 PM nope...had
to eat
Bev 2/10/00 9:42 PM
oh
Balor 2/10/00 9:42 PM hang
on
Balor 2/10/00 10:39 PM how is that
computer?
Bev 2/10/00 10:40 PM
pissin me off tonight....did you message me anymore before?
Bev 2/10/00 10:40 PM
what made you ask that question at this particular time?
Balor 2/10/00 10:40 PM no idea
Bev 2/10/00 10:49 PM
so when you told me to 'hold on'
before.....what was I holding cuz of? and for what ? :)
Balor 2/10/00 10:50 PM had a phone
call
Bev 2/10/00 10:54 PM
both times?
Balor 2/10/00 10:54 PM yeah
Bev 2/10/00 10:55 PM
ah.....
Balor 2/10/00 10:55 PM sorry
Bev 2/11/00 12:24 AM
so what were you 'checking out' when you were popping on and offline?
Balor 2/11/00 12:27 AM some ICQ
numbers that were on my ICQ
Bev 2/11/00 12:29 AM
I don't understand
Balor 2/11/00 12:29 AM hard to
explain
Bev 2/11/00 12:32 AM
checking for what?
Balor 2/11/00 12:32 AM to see whop
they were
Bev 2/11/00 12:33 AM
and you had to sign off ICQ to do that? couldn't you just click on the
little 'file'icon ?
Balor 2/11/00 12:34 AM no it was
ICQ users registered in my ICQ
Bev 2/11/00 12:35 AM
YOUR icq?
Balor 2/11/00 12:35 AM yes
Bev 2/11/00 12:36 AM
I still don't understand
Balor 2/11/00 12:37 AM you know
other ICQ users
Bev 2/11/00 12:38 AM
right.....like me for instance? but I still don't understand why you have
to sign off of it to check on who they are.....
Balor 2/11/00 12:39 AM because
trying to sign on as them made them disappear
Bev 2/11/00 12:40 AM
and you are trying to sign on as other people because.........?
Balor 2/11/00 12:41 AM to see if
I can delete them off my ICQ
Bev 2/11/00 12:42 AM
oh.....you want them to NOT have YOU on their lists?
Balor 2/11/00 12:42 AM nevermind
Bev 2/11/00 12:43 AM
k......oh well.....
Balor 2/11/00 12:43 AM ok
Bev 2/11/00 1:57 AM
ok....whatcha doin?
Balor 2/11/00 1:57 AM nothin...was
lookin for a friend in talkcity...but I can't find her
Bev 2/11/00 1:58 AM
you use that one too eh?....I've used it before.....do you like it?
Balor 2/11/00 1:58 AM just
checked it out...I like cheetachat better
Bev 2/11/00 1:59 AM
ah...haven't tryed that one......I don't like talkcity very well......is
it someone you've mentioned to me about before?
Balor 2/11/00 2:00 AM naa...it's
just a friend I met on firetalk when I first got it
Bev 2/11/00 2:00 AM
oh.....ok.......:)
Bev 2/11/00 2:02 AM
I'm going to bed......sweet dreams whenever you do :)nighty night :)
Balor 2/11/00 2:03 AM ok
nitey nite
Balor 2/11/00 3:27 PM what
ya doin?
Bev 2/11/00 3:27 PM
chattin and email....you?
Balor 2/11/00 3:28 PM nothin
Bev 2/11/00 3:28 PM
LOL
Bev 2/11/00 3:31 PM
are those letters rubbing off of your keyboard yet? :)
Balor 2/11/00 3:32 PM what
letters?
Balor 2/11/00 3:32 PM I just
took a nap
Bev 2/11/00 3:32 PM
N....U.....T.....H.....I and G :)
Balor 2/11/00 3:32 PM ok
Bev 2/11/00 3:32 PM
oh.....so you aren't awake yet :)
Balor 2/11/00 3:32 PM gettin
there
Balor 2/11/00 3:34 PM actually
my shoulder was hurting so I layed down for a bit
Bev 2/11/00 3:34 PM
oh.....why's that? any idea? :( poor thing
Balor 2/11/00 3:35 PM no
clue
Bev 2/11/00 3:35 PM
duz it hurt cuz of weather sometimes?
Balor 2/11/00 3:35 PM no
I think it is from how I sit in front of the computer
Bev 2/11/00 3:36 PM
oh.....:(
Balor 2/11/00 3:36 PM yup
Bev 2/11/00 3:46 PM
have you taken anything for it?
Balor 2/11/00 3:47 PM nope
Bev 2/11/00 3:47 PM
don't have anything or don't want to take anything?
Balor 2/11/00 3:48 PM neither
Bev 2/11/00 3:50 PM
just haven't gotten around to it then eh?
Balor 2/11/00 3:52 PM right...think
I am gettin some beer tonite
Bev 2/11/00 3:52 PM
are ya? so that will be your medicine?
Balor 2/11/00 3:53 PM maybe
Bev 2/11/00 3:56 PM
ok.....:)
Balor 2/11/00 5:54 PM hi
Bev 2/11/00 5:54 PM
hi :)
Balor 2/11/00 5:54 PM what
are ya doin?
Bev 2/11/00 5:54 PM
thinking about having a cig.....how about you?
Balor 2/11/00 5:55 PM gettin
ready to have one myself
Bev 2/11/00 5:55 PM
LOL....getting ready to huh?....you lit it yet? hehe
Balor 2/11/00 5:55 PM not
yet
Bev 2/11/00 5:57 PM
oh ok :)
Bev 2/11/00 7:18 PM
you gettin yer beer yet?
Balor 2/11/00 7:18 PM not
yet...why?
Bev 2/11/00 7:19 PM
just wonderin......you seemed anxious to have one....:)
Balor 2/11/00 7:20 PM LOL
Bev 2/11/00 7:20 PM
how's yer shoulder?
Balor 2/11/00 7:20 PM it's
alright I guess
Bev 2/11/00 7:20 PM
still hurt a bit?
Balor 2/11/00 7:20 PM a bit
Bev 2/11/00 7:21 PM
poor baby :)
Balor 2/11/00 7:22 PM I ain't
walkin in the rain
Bev 2/11/00 7:22 PM
oh....it is pretty icky out there huh?
Balor 2/11/00 7:23 PM yup
:(
Balor 2/11/00 7:27 PM figure
out what ya are doin tonite?
Bev 2/11/00 7:28 PM
LOL......not yet :)
Balor 2/11/00 7:28 PM ok
Balor 2/11/00 7:37 PM hello?
Bev 2/11/00 7:37 PM
I'm here :)
Balor 2/11/00 7:38 PM ok
Bev 2/11/00 7:38 PM
did I not get a message from you or somthin? again?
Balor 2/11/00 7:38 PM nope
Bev 2/11/00 7:38 PM
oh ok.....oh now you are on....on firetalk...I just left the room...you
goin to it now? hehehe
Balor 2/11/00 7:39 PM no
idea
Bev 2/11/00 7:39 PM
LOL.....do you EVER know what you are doing? LOL
Bev 2/11/00 7:39 PM
guess i shouldn't talk....I do the same thing don't I ? LOL
Balor 2/11/00 7:40 PM yes
you do
Bev 2/11/00 7:40 PM
LMAO......OK :)
Balor 2/11/00 7:40 PM I really
gotta find a way to get to the store
Bev 2/11/00 7:41 PM
yeah.....:(I gotta go figure out what's goin on here :)for din din I guess
:)
Balor 2/11/00 7:42 PM I guess
Bev 2/11/00 7:42 PM
:)
Bev 2/12/00 5:53 AM
gonna stay up still?
Balor 2/12/00 5:53 AM yeah
not really tired
Bev 2/12/00 5:53 AM
hehe....you are kidding!!! :)
Balor 2/12/00 5:54 AM nope
not at all
Bev 2/12/00 5:55 AM
uh huh.....you just wanna stay up for
Debbie......hehe duz she get up this early on Sat?
Balor 2/12/00 5:55 AM sometimes
:)
Bev 2/12/00 5:56 AM
gonna wait? :)
Balor 2/12/00 5:56 AM for
a bit
Bev 2/12/00 5:57 AM
ok......nighty nite....sweet dreams :) kiss kiss :) hehe
Balor 2/12/00 5:57 AM don't
use that kiss kiss thing I hate it
Bev 2/12/00 5:58 AM
LOL LOL.......ok.....how's 'smoochies' ?? hehe
Balor 2/12/00 5:58 AM smoochies
is better :)
Bev 2/12/00 5:58 AM
ok :)....LOL......smoochies....sweet dreams :)
Balor 2/12/00 5:58 AM sweet
dreams :)
Bev 2/12/00 3:22 PM
you up?
Balor 2/12/00 3:22 PM yup
Bev 2/12/00 3:22 PM
wow......LOL......did you go to bed? :)
Balor 2/12/00 3:23 PM sure
did :)
Bev 2/12/00 3:23 PM
when did you finally make it there?.....I JUST got up :)
Balor 2/12/00 3:24 PM LOL...I
got there not too long after you
Bev 2/12/00 3:24 PM
hehe.....did you get to talk to Debbie? :)
Balor 2/12/00 3:25 PM nope
:(
Bev 2/12/00 3:25 PM
awwww....:(
Balor 2/12/00 3:25 PM it's
alright
Bev 2/12/00 3:35 PM
how long you been up?
Balor 2/12/00 3:35 PM for
awhile
Bev 2/12/00 3:35 PM
:) k
Balor 2/12/00 3:36 PM :)
Bev 2/12/00 3:36 PM
what cha up to right now?
Bev 2/12/00 3:37 PM
don't say NUTHIN!!! :) LOL
Balor 2/12/00 3:37 PM not
much...just sittin here
Bev 2/12/00 3:37 PM
I know better :)
Balor 2/12/00 3:37 PM seriously...I
am just sittin here....
Bev 2/12/00 3:37 PM
hehe.....sure .....sure you are.....LOL ok ok :)
Balor 2/12/00 3:38 PM nobody
to chat with right now besides you
Bev 2/12/00 3:38 PM
hmmm.......bummer huh?
Balor 2/12/00 3:39 PM naaaaaaa
Bev 2/12/00 3:39 PM
thank you :) hehe
Balor 2/12/00 3:39 PM your
welcome :)
Bev 2/12/00 3:39 PM
:)
Bev 2/12/00 3:40 PM
is what's her name coming? sorry I can't remember her name...:) SOOOOO
many LOL
Balor 2/12/00 3:41 PM Dakota...and
it's gettin kinda late so I doubt it
Bev 2/12/00 3:41 PM
haven't heard from her either?
Balor 2/12/00 3:42 PM nope
it was her mom's Bday supposedly
Bev 2/12/00 3:42 PM
oh.....ok ;)
Balor 2/12/00 3:43 PM got
up took a shower....cleane dup the
bathroom....that's my day so far
Bev 2/12/00 3:44 PM
wow....kewl.....:)......I haven't done that much :)
Bev 2/12/00 4:59 PM
my ex just showed up!! :(
Balor 2/12/00 4:59 PM what
does he want?
Bev 2/12/00 4:59 PM
I don't know......:(
Balor 2/12/00 5:00 PM LOL
Bev 2/12/00 6:14 PM
he's gone finally :)
Balor 2/12/00 6:15 PM finally...geez
Bev 2/12/00 6:17 PM
yep....he's pretty irritating....:(
Balor 2/12/00 6:17 PM what
did he want?
Bev 2/12/00 6:18 PM
supposably to see his son and tell me about his current life....he thinks
I'm interested in that kind a thing I guess....he wishes :)
Balor 2/12/00 6:19 PM LOL....too
funny
Bev 2/12/00 6:19 PM
yeah it can be :)
Balor 2/12/00 6:19 PM some
comedy at least
Bev 2/12/00 6:20 PM
true....if it wasn't so sad and
pitiful.....I'll get some laughs out of it tho :)
Bev 2/12/00 6:21 PM
I don't feel good and his presence duz NOT help :(
Balor 2/12/00 6:21 PM I bet
not
Bev 2/12/00 6:53 PM
whacha doin?
Balor 2/12/00 6:54 PM talkin
to an old army buddy
Bev 2/12/00 6:54 PM
kewl :)
Balor 2/12/00 6:54 PM yup...just
got him on firetalk
Bev 2/12/00 6:58 PM
kewl...you talking to him on it now?
Bev 2/12/00 6:58 PM
I assume it's a him.....:)
Balor 2/12/00 6:58 PM yup
Balor 2/12/00 6:59 PM yeah
it is...he could prolly tell some stories about me too
Bev 2/12/00 6:59 PM
oh...and you said 'him' too....LOL......blonde moment sorry :)
Bev 2/12/00 6:59 PM
really? what's his name on there :) hehe
Balor 2/12/00 7:00 PM not
tellin
Bev 2/12/00 7:00 PM
AWWWWWWW :(
Balor 2/12/00 7:00 PM LOL
Balor 2/12/00 7:02 PM why?
Bev 2/12/00 7:02 PM
hehe....why not? you said he had stories :)
Balor 2/12/00 7:02 PM LOL
Bev 2/12/00 7:03 PM
:).......smoochies.....hehe......nibble nibble........:) EG
Balor 2/12/00 7:04 PM LOL....nible
nibble huh?
Bev 2/12/00 7:04 PM
yup :)
Balor 2/12/00 7:05 PM WG
Bev 2/12/00 7:05 PM
hehe
Bev 2/12/00 7:32 PM
now he's over at Tamara's GEEEZ!!
Balor 2/12/00 7:33 PM why?
Bev 2/12/00 7:34 PM
don't know yet......something about Emma dying and but don't know the details
yet.....said they are talking now and will splain here in a bit
Balor 2/12/00 7:34 PM ok
Bev 2/12/00 10:04 PM
what's up?
Bev 2/12/00 10:50 PM
hello? you there ?
Bev 2/13/00 12:52 AM
hey.....what happened to ya?
well....I'm seepy and need to go night nite.....sweet dreams and smoochies
to ya when you do get this.....talk to ya tomorrow :)
Bev 2/13/00 2:32 PM
there you are!! :)
Bev 2/13/00 2:34 PM
hhhheeeeelllllloooooooo :) you there?
Bev 2/13/00 3:04 PM
fine don't answer me :(
Bev 2/13/00 5:28 PM
did I do something wrong?
Balor 2/13/00 5:29 PM nope
I have been gone all day
Bev 2/13/00 5:29 PM
but you never answered even when you got back online?
Balor 2/13/00 5:30 PM I just
got home
Bev 2/13/00 5:30 PM
you've been gone since early last eve?
Balor 2/13/00 5:31 PM NO
I got up and left this morning
Bev 2/13/00 5:32 PM
excuse me......just wondering....you never responded to my messages since
early last night is why I asked
Balor 2/13/00 5:32 PM sorry
Bev 2/13/00 5:33 PM
so whatcha been doing since we last talked? why I haven't heard back from
ya?
Balor 2/13/00 5:33 PM cause
I have been gone
Bev 2/13/00 5:34 PM
where ya been gone to?
Balor 2/13/00 5:34 PM writin
a book?
Balor 2/13/00 5:35 PM it's
not that it's you keep on and keep on...it frustrates the shit out of me
Bev 2/13/00 5:35 PM
again the WALL GOES UP AND I HAVE NO RIGHT TO ASK A FREAKIN QUESTION!!
Bev 2/13/00 6:01 PM
no I don't.....you just keep clammin
up....THAT's what makes it SOUND like I keep on.......usually people
who aren't hiding anything will elaborate on what they've been doing.....but
you don't so a person has to ask.......it's that simple
Balor 2/13/00 6:02 PM so
ya jump online and then off?
Bev 2/13/00 6:32 PM
so you think I did that on purpose?
Balor 2/13/00 6:33 PM I don't
know...you sounded mad
Bev 2/13/00 6:34 PM
well....why shouldn't I be? you seem to need to know where I go when I
go somewhere....but I'm 'prying' when I ask you
Balor 2/13/00 6:36 PM it's
just the way you ask
Bev 2/13/00 6:37 PM
it's the way you TAKE how I ask......
Balor 2/13/00 6:37 PM I guess
that is part of it too
Bev 2/13/00 6:49 PM
you really think ANYONE would like this? or be able to accept this on an
ongoing basis?
Balor 2/13/00 6:49 PM I don't
know...all I did today was go to the flea market and some antique stores
Balor 2/13/00 6:57 PM you
there?
Bev 2/13/00 6:57 PM
I'm here
Balor 2/13/00 6:58 PM you
never answered
Bev 2/13/00 6:58 PM
was smokin.....my ex showed up too :(
Balor 2/13/00 6:58 PM oh
I am sorry
Bev 2/13/00 7:22 PM
for what?
Balor 2/13/00 7:22 PM that
your ex showed up
Bev 2/13/00 7:23 PM
oh
Balor 2/13/00 7:23 PM still
there?
Bev 2/13/00 7:23 PM
yeah
Balor 2/13/00 7:23 PM sucks
Bev 2/13/00 7:23 PM
what?
Balor 2/13/00 7:24 PM never
mind :)
Bev 2/13/00 7:24 PM
what?
Balor 2/13/00 7:25 PM just
sucks he's still there
Bev 2/13/00 7:25 PM
oh....thot you meant if I'm still here.....he just left
Balor 2/13/00 7:26 PM no
I meant him
Bev 2/13/00 7:26 PM
did your friend ever show up?
Balor 2/13/00 7:27 PM when?
Bev 2/13/00 7:27 PM
yesterday or today?
Balor 2/13/00 7:27 PM yeah
showed up yesterday :)
Bev 2/13/00 7:28 PM
and?
Balor 2/13/00 7:29 PM went
and sat in a hot tub to try and fix my shoulder
Bev 2/13/00 7:38 PM
since you asked 'when?' did someone else show up today?
Balor 2/13/00 7:39 PM went
with Paula today
Bev 2/13/00 7:39 PM
so what else did you do last night?
Balor 2/13/00 7:39 PM that
was it
Bev 2/13/00 7:40 PM
you weren't at your computer tho
Balor 2/13/00 7:40 PM I wasn't
home
Bev 2/13/00 7:41 PM
so you did do something else
Balor 2/13/00 7:41 PM I told
ya I went and sat in a hot tub
Bev 2/13/00 7:42 PM
someone you don't know you go to a hot tub with all night and I'm not good
enuf to even leave your house except for business stuff....sure this makes
me feel real good
going to the store....bye
Balor 2/13/00 7:45 PM what???
I was tellin my friend about my back and she offered her hot tub cause
I am losing feeling in my left shoulder blade...thought the heat would
help
Bev 2/13/00 10:45 PM
HER hottub....in portland? wasn't that
nice....you can rent one for an hour HERE for 10bucks, so you spent
the night there too I suppose.............
Bev 2/13/00 10:45 PM
and the fact that you weren't OPEN and put up a wall ABOUT what you did
and where you were....that makes it worse.....that's NOT being HONEST and
OPEN with me.....now you are on EXTENDED AWAY.....is that for me? or are
you gone again? Sorry...but I just can't handle not knowing what the truth
is or
isn't.....been there done that
Balor 2/13/00 10:46 PM no it's
not for you.....My friend didn't come from Portland Saturday Instead I
went to a friends in Eugene at around 9pm and got home about midnight
Balor 2/13/00 10:50 PM hello?
Balor 2/13/00 10:54 PM HELLO?
Bev 2/13/00 10:56 PM
I went for a smoke
Balor 2/13/00 11:05 PM oh ok
Balor 2/13/00 11:07 PM well?
Bev 2/13/00 11:10 PM
well, how was I supposed to know or even assume that, I asked if your friend
ever showed up......you said 'yes'
Balor 2/13/00 11:10 PM Sorry.....I
kinda forgot about her since she didn't show
Bev 2/13/00 11:15 PM
who's the friend you were talking about?
Balor 2/13/00 11:16 PM Joanna I've
known her for about 7 months
Bev 2/13/00 11:18 PM
just a friend or did she used to be something more?
Balor 2/13/00 11:18 PM nop...just
a friend...was the roommate of an ex of mine
Balor 2/13/00 11:26 PM she is also
the one that gets killer deals cause she works with the Execs at Sony...And
before you ask.....it was a strictly social visit no hanky panky
Bev 2/13/00 11:31 PM
when I asked if 'your friend showed up' what made you say 'yes' then.....was
it planned she was coming over anyway?
Balor 2/13/00 11:32 PM No I just
forgot about the one you were talkin about I talked to Joanna online and
told her about
my shoulder and she suggested sittin in a hot tub
Bev 2/13/00 11:32 PM
so she came over and got ya?
Balor 2/13/00 11:32 PM yup
Bev 2/13/00 11:51 PM
so duz your shoulder feel better?
Balor 2/13/00 11:52 PM it did for
the night
Bev 2/14/00 12:18 AM
did you get online when you got in last night?
Balor 2/14/00 12:19 AM mope...went
to bed...I was all relaxed
Balor 2/14/00 2:37 PM Happy
Valentines Day!!
Bev 2/14/00 3:01 PM
Happy Valentine's Day to you too :)
Balor 2/14/00 3:01 PM :)
Bev 2/14/00 3:02 PM
gonna be offline for a little bit
Balor 2/14/00 3:02 PM ok
:)
Bev 2/14/00 4:39 PM
what happened to you last night?
Balor 2/14/00 4:41 PM went
to bed and then couldn't sleep cause my shoulder was killin me
Bev 2/14/00 4:42 PM
you just disappeared
Balor 2/14/00 4:42 PM yeah
my net connection died as well as my phone
Bev 2/14/00 4:43 PM
how'd that happen? BOTH? how did you fix it?
Balor 2/14/00 4:43 PM they
lost power up at the towers
Bev 2/14/00 4:44 PM
both get power from the same towers?
huh....which ones....kval?
Balor 2/14/00 4:45 PM the
towers on Quarry
Bev 2/14/00 4:45 PM
oh I don't know where that is....never heard of that one...at least not
by that name
Balor 2/14/00 4:45 PM it's
around here :)
Bev 2/14/00 4:47 PM
so you were able to get back on tho soon after that huh?
Balor 2/14/00 4:47 PM at
about 10am this morning
Bev 2/14/00 4:48 PM
you were on at 6 somethin.....:)
Balor 2/14/00 4:48 PM at
my mom's house
Bev 2/14/00 4:48 PM
huh?
Bev 2/14/00 4:55 PM
you there?
Balor 2/14/00 4:55 PM yes
Bev 2/14/00 5:00 PM
are you typing an extra long answer or
somthing?
Balor 2/14/00 5:00 PM you
asked if I was here and I said yes
Bev 2/14/00 5:01 PM
that was after I was already waiting on an answer ??
Balor 2/14/00 5:01 PM huh???
Bev 2/14/00 5:02 PM
that's what my question was....??? scroll back
Balor 2/14/00 5:03 PM I'm
lost lets start over...HI
Bev 2/14/00 5:06 PM
:).........you said you got back online about 10am.......I said you were
online at 6somthing this morning and you said 'at my mom's house'............I
responded with 'huh?'
Balor 2/14/00 5:07 PM I was
online at my mom's house
Bev 2/14/00 5:07 PM
at 6am?
Balor 2/14/00 5:07 PM yes
Bev 2/14/00 5:08 PM
at 6am?
Balor 2/14/00 5:08 PM how
many times do I have to say yes at 6am
Bev 2/14/00 5:09 PM
k
Balor 2/14/00 5:09 PM geez....said
it like 3 times
Bev 2/14/00 5:10 PM
no shit
Balor 2/14/00 5:11 PM LOL...
Bev 2/14/00 5:11 PM
?
Balor 2/14/00 5:19 PM what
was the no shit thing for?
Bev 2/14/00 5:19 PM
nothing.....nevermind
Balor 2/14/00 5:20 PM I am
lost
Bev 2/14/00 5:20 PM
me too
Balor 2/14/00 5:20 PM ok...one
more time
Balor 2/14/00 5:20 PM Hi
how was your day?
Bev 2/14/00 5:20 PM
nevermind
Bev 2/14/00 5:21 PM
ok
Balor 2/14/00 5:22 PM just
ok?
Bev 2/14/00 5:22 PM
yup
Balor 2/14/00 5:22 PM how
come....and you are doin the one word thing
Bev 2/14/00 5:23 PM
regular day.....yup
Balor 2/14/00 5:25 PM that's
ok I guess I have been cleaning house
Bev 2/14/00 5:26 PM
why?
Balor 2/14/00 5:27 PM I have
a living room with nothin in it
now....except furniture :)
Balor 2/14/00 5:27 PM bathroom
is relatively clean...with TP
Kitchen is next
Bev 2/14/00 5:27 PM
you must be expecting company huh?
Balor 2/14/00 5:28 PM nope...just
got motivated today
Bev 2/14/00 5:28 PM
kewl....that's great :) how'd you get
motivated?
Balor 2/14/00 5:29 PM no
idea... just did
Bev 2/14/00 5:33 PM
good for you.....wish I could get that kind a boost :)
Balor 2/14/00 5:33 PM LOL...tookm
long enough
Bev 2/14/00 6:04 PM
you must be spendin most of the day, other than cleanin, online with Debbie
huh?
Balor 2/14/00 6:05 PM kinda
:)
Bev 2/14/00 6:08 PM
hmm
Bev 2/14/00 6:11 PM
probly all you wanna do huh?
Balor 2/14/00 6:12 PM not
really...what were you thinkin?
Balor 2/14/00 6:21 PM hello?
Bev 2/14/00 6:23 PM
I'm here.....mom and my son were giving me their Valentine's gifts
Balor 2/14/00 6:24 PM cool
Bev 2/14/00 6:26 PM
I'm here......
Balor 2/14/00 6:26 PM ok
Balor 2/14/00 6:37 PM what
are you doing?
Bev 2/14/00 6:38 PM
nuthin...
Balor 2/14/00 6:39 PM why
not?
Bev 2/14/00 6:39 PM
probly gonna leave in a bit, for a bit
Balor 2/14/00 6:39 PM what
ya gonna go do?
Bev 2/14/00 6:40 PM
possibly be back with a new monitor....depends on the price i guess
Balor 2/14/00 6:40 PM cool
Bev 2/14/00 6:45 PM
i'll drop off your gift on my way out
Balor 2/14/00 6:46 PM why
did you get me something? now I feel bad cause I can't afford squat
Bev 2/14/00 6:47 PM
I'll just leave it by your gate or something
Balor 2/14/00 6:47 PM not
coming in?
Bev 2/14/00 6:49 PM
why
Balor 2/14/00 6:49 PM nevermind
....
Bev 2/14/00 6:59 PM
'nevermind'.....that's why.....
Balor 2/14/00 6:59 PM it's
just being a bad day I am sorry
Bev 2/14/00 6:59 PM
how's it been a bad day for you ??
Balor 2/14/00 7:00 PM I don't
know just has been
Bev 2/14/00 7:04 PM
doubt it's not as bad as mine
Balor 2/14/00 7:04 PM what
is wrong with yours?
Bev 2/14/00 7:04 PM
everything....yours?
Balor 2/14/00 7:05 PM like
what?
Bev 2/14/00 7:05 PM
what's so bad with yours
Balor 2/14/00 7:05 PM just
seems nothin is goin right today...course it's prolly all in my head
Bev 2/14/00 7:05 PM
what's not going right
Balor 2/14/00 7:06 PM just
seems everything
Bev 2/14/00 7:06 PM
like
Balor 2/14/00 7:06 PM just
a feeling
Bev 2/14/00 7:06 PM
'bout what
Balor 2/14/00 7:07 PM nothin
in particular just a sensation
Bev 2/14/00 7:08 PM
hmm......a person?
Balor 2/14/00 7:08 PM nope....not
a person
Bev 2/14/00 7:09 PM
then what?
Balor 2/14/00 7:09 PM I don't
know...I'd tell ya if I knew
Bev 2/14/00 7:11 PM
your phone still out?
Balor 2/14/00 7:12 PM nope...is
back up...came up same time the net connection did
Bev 2/14/00 7:20 PM
do you know how depressing and painful it is to HAVE someone around who
COULD make a Valentine's day pretty good and duzn't?.....it's worse than
not having someone
around for anything at all.....it's been the story of my life for about
the last 7 yrs....there's always been someone around but
they just don't make any effort to try.....:(
Bev 2/14/00 9:08 PM
I had to say that.....I was about to
BLOW.....it's just another Valentine's that's completely fucked and
it's not fair!!! I deserve better than this....I've not done
anything to hurt anyone and I'm the one who get's a lousy valentine/birthday
month EVERY year IT SUCKS
Balor 2/14/00 9:08 PM I'm
sorry and I know how you feel
Bev 2/14/00 9:10 PM
and even with what we are supposed to have......you don't even want to
call me!!......how can you know what I'm talking about?!!
Bev 2/14/00 9:54 PM
you still think your day has been bad? and how do you know how I feel ?
Balor 2/14/00 9:55 PM I'm
sorry...I don't know what else to say
Bev 2/14/00 9:58 PM
figures
Balor 2/14/00 9:59 PM what
is with the attitude...it's not like I have gotten anything from anyone
either
Bev 2/14/00 10:08 PM
you have a gift from me here and all sorts of shit being sent to you all
the time from Debbie......what have I got?
Balor 2/14/00 10:09 PM check your
email
Bev 2/14/00 10:20 PM
thanks, and yes I'm crying......and how many times do I have to say....it
duzn't have to COST a lot or ANY money.....I don't EXPECT that!!!! and
how can my day get any
better....it's GONE......this card is nice I just wish you had done
what you implied you were going to do when you were doing Debbie's
thing.....which....by the way....didn't cost ANY money.......
Balor 2/14/00 10:28 PM sorry I
have had my head up my ass about stuff
Bev 2/14/00 10:29 PM
I would love to go out with you and feel special and have fun with you.....but
I don't believe it's ever going to happen......even since we've had a better
understanding.....and that makes me even more sad cuz all I wanted
was to have some REAL FUN, the kind where I feel special and really
wanted, not like I FORCED you to....that just ruins it!!
Balor 2/14/00 10:30 PM I know that.....when
I ask it's cause I want to
Bev 2/14/00 10:30 PM
and why is that? you haven't had your head up your ass when it comes to
being sweet to Debbie ?......I'm sure even across the country she is feeling
totally close to you.....and here I am 8 blocks away and we couldn't be
more far apart
Balor 2/14/00 10:31 PM I know :(
Bev 2/14/00 10:33 PM
ok.....and here's Valentine's day come and gone and I have to poor my heart
out to you to get an ecard....and that's NOT why I did it.....I knew if
I got one cuz of letting you know how I felt....it wouldn't be the same
Bev 2/14/00 10:33 PM
can you try and explain that to me then?
Balor 2/14/00 10:34 PM explain
what??
Bev 2/14/00 10:34 PM
when you said 'I know ;('
Balor 2/14/00 10:34 PM about not
doin anything.....
Bev 2/14/00 10:36 PM
what's wrong with me......what have I done to not get at least SOME of
the nice treatment?
Balor 2/14/00 10:36 PM nothin is
wrong with you
Bev 2/14/00 10:37 PM
then why didn't it occur to you to do
anything?
Balor 2/14/00 10:37 PM i guess
the latest developments in our
relationship
Bev 2/14/00 10:38 PM
huh? how so?
Balor 2/14/00 10:38 PM it's a new
type of relationship to me and I don't know exactly how to take it yet
but I am learning
Bev 2/14/00 10:40 PM
ok...now I'm confused.....I thot this is what you wanted from the beginning?
I got confused before of the 'day to day' speech when you weren't intending
on that kind of relationship at all
Balor 2/14/00 10:41 PM one sec
Bev 2/14/00 10:41 PM
k
Bev 2/14/00 10:42 PM
I'll have a cig.....brb .....is the one sec cuz you are thinking or busy?
Balor 2/14/00 10:42 PM eating
Balor 2/14/00 10:51 PM am back
Bev 2/14/00 10:54 PM
me too
Balor 2/14/00 10:55 PM ok
Bev 2/14/00 10:55 PM
what do you mean a new type of
relationship.....I thot this is what you wanted, what you even planned
it was going to be?
Balor 2/14/00 10:56 PM I never
planned it
Bev 2/14/00 10:59 PM
you kept saying.....take it slow....day by day....etc etc.....but yet you
planned on possibly traveling to see other people.....so I figured those
phrases were to let me know you didn't really plan on seeing if it would
go any further
Balor 2/14/00 11:02 PM it is strange..........
Bev 2/14/00 11:06 PM
try to explain please.....did these other people hold more of your interest
where you decided you would not see how 'things would go' with me, but
since I was already around,you would just keep me at a distance so you
could feel better about investigating these other possibilities? you were
more intriqued by the online possibilities? or what?
Balor 2/14/00 11:08 PM prolly cause
it is safer
Bev 2/14/00 11:09 PM
what's safer?
Balor 2/14/00 11:09 PM no chance
I'll meet these people
Bev 2/14/00 11:10 PM
I see......even Debbie? Sky? (is that her real name?)
Balor 2/14/00 11:10 PM Deana
Bev 2/14/00 11:13 PM
even either of them?
Balor 2/14/00 11:13 PM prolly not
Bev 2/14/00 11:20 PM
I know what you mean and I can understand that.....it's safer cuz they
are far away.....safer, emotionally....:) and it's weird that I'm not jealous
like you
would think I would be....I think that's shows growth on my part that
I'm not just falling head over heals right away.......I'm jealous of the
attention she gets being so far away when I can't get even PART of that
being RIGHT HERE...
Balor 2/14/00 11:21 PM it is safer
emoitnally
Bev 2/14/00 11:21 PM
.I just want to have time that I feel SPECIAL, the only one that matters
for THAT TIME SLOT(evening, day, hour....whatever)....even if it's just
a casual or slow thing.....as long as communication is open enuf to make
sure both parties know where the other is at and make sure the move towards
anything if at all is made together not one expecting more than
the other at any time
Balor 2/14/00 11:22 PM true
Bev 2/14/00 11:23 PM
now YOU are doing the one word answers
Balor 2/14/00 11:23 PM well it
is true isn't it
Bev 2/14/00 11:25 PM
I don't say anything I don't know to be true....at least as I understand
it.......can you expand on any part of our conversation for me? it's ok
if you want to go back and read parts again....I do :)
Balor 2/14/00 11:26 PM yeah but
I am really tired right now:(
Bev 2/14/00 11:29 PM
is that really sort of an excuse cuz you are getting uncomfortable?
Balor 2/14/00 11:29 PM no it means
I Only got 3 hours of slep
Bev 2/14/00 11:30 PM
why?
Balor 2/14/00 11:30 PM shoulder
was hurting all last night
Bev 2/14/00 11:32 PM
and online with Debbie.....from the time she got up ......hmm? sending
stuff ...??
Balor 2/14/00 11:32 PM no...not
at all...was at my mom's house
Bev 2/14/00 11:34 PM
and why were you at your mom's house? from the time you got kicked offline?
or did you sleep the 3 hrs and get up and go to her house at 6am?
Balor 2/14/00 11:35 PM I didn't
sleep at all last night
Bev 2/14/00 11:36 PM
so you were at your moms online cuz you couldn't sleep?
Balor 2/14/00 11:36 PM exactly
Bev 2/14/00 11:38 PM
so what happened between the time you were kicked off and got back on ICQ
at 6am? nevermind...since you won't explain...I'd have to ask too many
questions to understand to
satisfy myself......FORGET IT....I give up
Balor 2/14/00 11:39 PM I watched
Blade
Bev 2/14/00 11:44 PM
normally if I get kicked off in the middle of something w/someone or in
a situation where a 'good night' is expected......I usually take the FIRST
opportunity to leave a message so when that person gets online they immediately
know what happened.....since none of us are mindreaders.....but that's
cuz I try to be considerate of how others might feel from my
sudden disappearance.....you aren't that way huh?
Bev 2/14/00 11:44 PM
I tryed to not make that sound catty.....but don't know if I succeeded....it's
just the truth as I see it is all
Balor 2/14/00 11:44 PM I had no
choice
Bev 2/14/00 11:45 PM
no choice for what? getting kicked off? I know that!! it's when you got
back on at whatever time of the morning you did is what I'm talking about
Bev 2/14/00 11:46 PM
but of course....I'm probly expecting too much.....so just ignore me....
Balor 2/14/00 11:46 PM I was only
online for a few
Balor 2/14/00 11:49 PM I went to
my mom's she put some heat stuff on my back and I took some aleve
Bev 2/14/00 11:50 PM
yeah I understand....more important things were happening
Balor 2/14/00 11:50 PM there was
nothin happening....
Bev 2/14/00 11:50 PM
that's good.....mommy's are good for
that......
Bev 2/14/00 11:50 PM
ok
Balor 2/14/00 11:51 PM I ended
up sleeping on her couch til 11 or so
Bev 2/14/00 11:52 PM
ok
Balor 2/14/00 11:53 PM now my shoulder
hurts again :(
Bev 2/14/00 11:54 PM
I asked you if there was anything I could do to help it when I was there
but you wouldn't let ME help:(
sorry it hurts...:(
Balor 2/14/00 11:55 PM I don't
have any icy hot stuff here :(
Bev 2/14/00 11:56 PM
go to your mom's again
Balor 2/14/00 11:56 PM she's in
bed :(
Bev 2/14/00 11:56 PM
wasn't she in bad last night when you went over ther? what's the difference?
Balor 2/14/00 11:57 PM she was
awake when I wenty over there at around 6am
Bev 2/14/00 11:58 PM
oh...I had no idea of the time table of where and when....it was all just
scattered to me.....since I wasn't there
Balor 2/14/00 11:58 PM oh I'm sorry
Bev 2/15/00 12:00 AM
that's why I ask questions.....and sometimes it is a lot cuz I only get
partial answers.....so i have to ask another to get more of the puzzle
or it duzn't make sense
putting it together in my head....I'm not a mindreader.....if I care
I want to understand.....that's why I ask questions....to understand
Balor 2/15/00 12:02 AM I didn't
flip out tonite about the questions
Bev 2/15/00 12:02 AM
really? thanks :)
Balor 2/15/00 12:03 AM did I flip
out?
Bev 2/15/00 12:04 AM
you know....I don't think so....not noticably anyway....I'd have to go
back and read.....but you didn't make a comment that would make me think
you did....:)
Balor 2/15/00 12:05 AM ok
Bev 2/15/00 12:06 AM
thank you for trying not to :)
Balor 2/15/00 12:06 AM no problem
:)
Balor 2/15/00 12:32 AM nitey nite
gonna try and get some sleep tonite
Bev 2/15/00 12:33 AM
ok....me too....I'm exhausted..... being upset is draining.....hope your
shoulder feels better
Bev 2/15/00 12:33 AM
sweet dreams
Balor 2/15/00 12:34 AM I hope so
too....night
Balor 2/15/00 8:19 PM how
weird
Bev 2/15/00 8:19 PM
what's that?
Balor 2/15/00 8:20 PM Debbie
is ignoring me all of a sudden
Bev 2/15/00 8:20 PM
I doubt that :(
Balor 2/15/00 8:21 PM seriously,
she is....and I have no idea why
Bev 2/15/00 8:21 PM
maybe she's not by her computer ....?
Balor 2/15/00 8:22 PM she
has me on ignore for some reason
Bev 2/15/00 8:22 PM
huh? on what program?
Balor 2/15/00 8:23 PM firetalk
and ICQ
Bev 2/15/00 8:23 PM
ok...how do you do that on FireTalk......and how do you know she's on then?
Balor 2/15/00 8:24 PM I can
see her...but she has me blocked
out...guess she wasn't that nice after all
Bev 2/15/00 8:25 PM
huh....I guess.....sounds like it......:(
Balor 2/15/00 8:25 PM really
pisses me off....she gave no reason just started ignoring
Bev 2/15/00 8:26 PM
I don't blame you.....that is weird.....:( have you tryed an email?
Balor 2/15/00 8:27 PM yup
no response
Bev 2/15/00 8:28 PM
so this must be why she wouldn't give you her number.....??
Balor 2/15/00 8:29 PM guess
so...oh well
Bev 2/15/00 8:29 PM
you ok?
Balor 2/15/00 8:30 PM I will
be fine...just fucked that she would do that
Bev 2/15/00 8:31 PM
yeah it is.......:( shoulda sent me the flowers......:)
Balor 2/15/00 8:31 PM definately
Bev 2/15/00 8:31 PM
:)
Bev 2/15/00 8:37 PM
got my new monitor :)
Balor 2/15/00 8:37 PM cool
:)
Bev 2/15/00 8:38 PM
still out in the car tho.....putting it off lugging that heavy thing in
here :)
Balor 2/15/00 8:39 PM LOL....funny
Bev 2/15/00 8:39 PM
what? oh that it's still in the car :)
Balor 2/15/00 8:40 PM yup
:)
Bev 2/15/00 8:41 PM
I need a big strong MAN to help me.....:)
Balor 2/15/00 8:42 PM a man???
why?
Bev 2/15/00 8:42 PM
I'd rather look at a big strong man picking it up than a big strong woman.....ANY
DAY
Balor 2/15/00 8:43 PM LOL...true
Bev 2/15/00 8:44 PM
fine....don't offer :(
Balor 2/15/00 8:46 PM I would
but my shoulder hurts :(
Bev 2/15/00 8:46 PM
it would have to be a LITERAL offer of
help.......it's the thot I was thinking of :)
Bev 2/15/00 8:47 PM
I know your shoulder hurts silly :(
Balor 2/15/00 8:49 PM sucks...I
would help if I could
Bev 2/15/00 8:51 PM
I know.....sorry......was just thinkin you would come back with a humorous
'he man' reply of some sort....:)
Balor 2/15/00 8:52 PM LOL....
Bev 2/15/00 8:54 PM
I guess that's too much to ask of you right now huh? being bummed and all
Balor 2/15/00 8:55 PM not
bummed just pissed off
Bev 2/15/00 8:57 PM
ahh....what are ya gonna do?
Balor 2/15/00 8:57 PM ignore
her when she says I'm sorry
Bev 2/15/00 9:00 PM
ok ......:)
Balor 2/15/00 9:01 PM she
deserves it
Bev 2/15/00 9:01 PM
I agree.......:)
Bev 2/15/00 11:43 PM
being stuck up are ya? or just don't want to talk to me? :)
Balor 2/15/00 11:43 PM what do
ya mean?
Bev 2/15/00 11:45 PM
you haven't been attempting to continue a convo is all...so just tring
to lighten it up and see if I could find out why? is all :)
Balor 2/15/00 11:46 PM no reason
really
Bev 2/15/00 11:46 PM
ah ok
Balor 2/15/00 11:46 PM kinda quiet
I guess
Bev 2/15/00 11:47 PM
still pissed?
Balor 2/15/00 11:47 PM kinda
Bev 2/15/00 11:49 PM
I woulda never done anything like
that.....even if it were across the world....I don't understand either....that's
the way it is online tho sometimes....people don't
consider the person on the other side as real so it's too easy to blow
em off or play em or whatever
Balor 2/15/00 11:49 PM yup...true
Bev 2/15/00 11:50 PM
:)
Bev 2/16/00 1:14 AM
what are you doin?
Balor 2/16/00 1:14 AM nothin...you?
Bev 2/16/00 1:15 AM
falling asleep.....gotta get to bed.....you gonna be able to sleep? is
that why you aren't in bed yet?
Balor 2/16/00 1:16 AM pretty
much
Bev 2/16/00 1:17 AM
:(.....sweet dreams if you can get there....:)
Balor 2/16/00 1:18 AM thank
ya...sweet dreams to you too :)
Bev 2/16/00 1:18 AM
:) thanks :)
Balor 2/16/00 1:19 AM anytime
:)
Balor 2/16/00 1:38 AM nitey
nite....Hugs and kisses
Bev 2/16/00 1:38 AM
aww...thank you :) really :)
Balor 2/16/00 1:38 AM anytime
:)
Bev 2/16/00 1:39 AM
:) I hope you can get some sleep.....some good sleep :)
Balor 2/16/00 1:39 AM me
too
Bev 2/16/00 1:20 PM
hello?
Bev 2/16/00 4:06 PM
fine....don't answer me then :(
Balor 2/16/00 4:06 PM why??
Balor 2/16/00 4:07 PM you
never said anything?
Bev 2/16/00 4:07 PM
why?? ? yes I did.....I said hi at about 1:20
Balor 2/16/00 4:07 PM sorry
I was sleepin then I got up and am workin on a computer
Bev 2/16/00 4:08 PM
sleepin? what computer?
Balor 2/16/00 4:08 PM my
aunts
Balor 2/16/00 9:26 PM where
are ya??
Balor 2/16/00 10:48 PM hello?
Bev 2/16/00 10:53 PM
WOW....gonna talk to me??? :)
Balor 2/16/00 10:53 PM I messaged
ya way earlier
Bev 2/16/00 10:54 PM
when?
Balor 2/16/00 10:54 PM when ya
first came online
Bev 2/16/00 10:55 PM
oh...the 9:30 time? I just got that one at the same time....been in and
out of room....not sitting at pc :)
Balor 2/16/00 10:55 PM what ya
doin?
Bev 2/16/00 10:56 PM
chores and junk....gotta go get K's library book out of car and read it
to him....I'll be sitting down in just a few :)
Balor 2/16/00 10:56 PM ook
Bev 2/16/00 11:20 PM
I'm back :)
Balor 2/16/00 11:20 PM ok
Bev 2/16/00 11:20 PM
I can tell you are just thrilled :)
Balor 2/16/00 11:20 PM yes I am
:)
Bev 2/16/00 11:21 PM
I'm glad :)
Balor 2/16/00 11:21 PM good :")
Bev 2/16/00 11:24 PM
how's your shoulder?
Balor 2/16/00 11:24 PM alright...could
use a beer
Bev 2/16/00 11:24 PM
yeah....might help a bit huh?
Balor 2/16/00 11:25 PM yeah
Bev 2/16/00 11:26 PM
I have 4 hours and 53 mins of age 35 left :(
Balor 2/16/00 11:26 PM awww...Well
Happy Early Birthday
Bev 2/16/00 11:27 PM
thanks
Balor 2/16/00 11:27 PM just thanks?
Bev 2/16/00 11:28 PM
what should I say? :)
Balor 2/16/00 11:28 PM beats me
Bev 2/16/00 11:28 PM
come on.....what did you think I should have said?
Bev 2/16/00 11:29 PM
or what did you want me to say :)
Balor 2/16/00 11:29 PM I don't
know you lookin for someone on firetalk?
Bev 2/16/00 11:30 PM
no not really....need to fix my sound
Balor 2/16/00 11:30 PM LOL....ok
Bev 2/16/00 11:42 PM
you been on firetalk a lot today?
Balor 2/16/00 11:42 PM not really
no
Balor 2/16/00 11:50 PM gonna play
tribes for a bit
Bev 2/17/00 12:47 AM
your back :)
Balor 2/17/00 12:48 AM yup
Bev 2/17/00 1:03 AM
you must be busy making something SUPER SPECIAL for me for my Birthday
to make it up to me for Valentine's huh? :)
Balor 2/17/00 1:04 AM could
be
Balor 2/17/00 1:05 AM LOL....maybe
we'll go to dinner
Bev 2/17/00 1:05 AM
I got bummed again when I thot about those flowers you sent Debbie....the
money you spent on them.....:( and not me :(
Balor 2/17/00 1:05 AM don't
remind me ok
Bev 2/17/00 1:05 AM
hehe......mom's taking me out :)
Balor 2/17/00 1:05 AM nevermind
then
Bev 2/17/00 1:05 AM
so we BOTH feel bad about that huh? :)
Bev 2/17/00 1:06 AM
just 'nevermind'?? that's it? :(
Balor 2/17/00 1:06 AM well
you already have plans so nevermind
Bev 2/17/00 1:07 AM
for tomorrow I do....:) yes
Balor 2/17/00 1:07 AM I am
busy the rest of the weekend
Bev 2/17/00 1:07 AM
oh? :(
Balor 2/17/00 1:07 AM yup
Bev 2/17/00 1:08 AM
doing what?
Balor 2/17/00 1:08 AM doin
stuff with some friends
Bev 2/17/00 1:10 AM
doing what? with whom? all weekend? going out of town or something?
Balor 2/17/00 1:10 AM seein
my friend dan in salem, supposed to go with Paula somewhere Tomorrow and
Sunday
Bev 2/17/00 1:11 AM
Dan's on Saturday? where you and Paula going that it's two separate days?
Balor 2/17/00 1:12 AM I forgot
where we are going tomorrow ...LOL Sunday I think it's Woodburn
Bev 2/17/00 1:13 AM
you forgot??? yeah right what's in Woodburn? and what about Fri?
Bev 2/17/00 1:14 AM
and tomorrow is when you mentioned
dinner.....but you will be busy correct?
Balor 2/17/00 1:14 AM yeah
I forgot she called tonite and said "you gonna be ready tomorrow at 11....I
just said sure...can't remember where we are going there is some outlet
mall in woodburn she likes
Balor 2/17/00 1:14 AM only
during the day tomorrow
Bev 2/17/00 1:15 AM
hmm.....having a hard time understanding 'being busy ALL weekend' then....
Balor 2/17/00 1:16 AM well
I will be
Bev 2/17/00 1:16 AM
of course you will
Balor 2/17/00 1:17 AM don't
know when I'll be done hangin out with dan...only get to see him in a blue
moon
Bev 2/17/00 1:17 AM
and which day is this?
Balor 2/17/00 1:18 AM Saturday
and prolly saturday night
Bev 2/17/00 1:18 AM
how you getting ther?
Balor 2/17/00 1:18 AM he'll
prolly come here
Bev 2/17/00 1:19 AM
and you must've forgotten about whatever it is that you are doing Friday
night....to have all
bases covered so i won't bother you right?
Balor 2/17/00 1:19 AM what
are you doing??
Bev 2/17/00 1:19 AM
just sick of it is all
Balor 2/17/00 1:20 AM sick
of what??
Bev 2/17/00 1:23 AM
you know exactly what......and btw......YOU were gonna do the SAME thing
to ME as Sky did to you ....did you realize that? I didnt' till I started
thinking about it.....you were gonna just take off...you said so yourself
(in 5
days) and I had NO CLUE as to what was going to happen....and you obviously
weren't gonna tell me....now you keep apologizing for being an ass....yet
you still continue to find 'excuses' to not treat me very nice!!!!
Bev 2/17/00 1:24 AM
something else is always more important yet you expect me to just wait
around.....I'm SICK OF IT
Balor 2/17/00 1:25 AM so
you are all pissy about what?
I didn't go anywhere did I? GOD forbid I make plans with my friends
too
Bev 2/17/00 1:25 AM
don't be more of a jerk Balor
Balor 2/17/00 1:25 AM well
then don't be a bitch
Bev 2/17/00 1:26 AM
you were going to.....
Balor 2/17/00 1:26 AM right
I was just gonna leave for 2 weeks and hope you didn't notice
Bev 2/17/00 1:28 AM
seems to be......you still had me thinking we were 'taking it day by day....taking
it slow' I had no idea that meant ending it by taking off to screw someone
else....KNOWING we wouldn't be able to after that....or did you
think you could just get it started again with me when you got back?
Balor 2/17/00 1:28 AM whatever...you
are blowing shit way out or proportion and I don't have the patience for
it at this moment
Bev 2/17/00 1:29 AM
I'm not....and you know it
Balor 2/17/00 1:30 AM yes
you are.....there would have to be
something very very special for me to even consider flying to meet
someone I don't know
Bev 2/17/00 1:30 AM
you told me yourself you were going to and the only reason you didn't was
cuz SHE wanted to see someone else
Bev 2/17/00 1:31 AM
did you get a check this week?
Balor 2/17/00 1:31 AM I knew
it would never happen anyhow
Balor 2/17/00 1:31 AM not
yet
Balor 2/17/00 1:38 AM good
nite
Bev 2/17/00 1:39 AM
think about how you've been 'leading' me along Balor.....I'm NOT blowing
this out of proportion.......I feel better for a while after talking to
you cuz you apologize.. like you didn't realize what you were doing....you
are complaining about not having money.....
Balor 2/17/00 1:39 AM I have
no money
Bev 2/17/00 1:40 AM
you buy a $120 cam (which I was fine with...not my place to deny you a
new toy..don't get me wrong), flowers to send to a girl across country....etc....GEEEEZZZZZ
.......you can't even do something that DUZN'T cost money and
you apologize for not having it after you've spent it on someone else!!!
Balor 2/17/00 1:41 AM excuse
me.......
Bev 2/17/00 1:41 AM
it duzn't cost any money to make someone feel special till you DO have
some....and it duzn't have to be a lot
Balor 2/17/00 1:42 AM I think
maybe we'd just better be friends
Bev 2/17/00 1:43 AM
i knew it would never happen.....I knew it.....you were waiting for this
to come so you could say that.....you happy now? You don't have to spend
a night out with
me....aren't you the lucky one
Bev 2/17/00 1:44 AM
I was hoping I was wrong about you...
Balor 2/17/00 1:45 AM I'll
still take ya to dinner...but I can't handle all this shit all the time
when somethin doesn't go your way
Balor 2/17/00 1:45 AM now
we gonna sling mud at each other right?
Bev 2/17/00 1:47 AM
no....MY way would be to be treated like you want me around sometimes.....MY
way would be to be treated like a fellow HUMAN who has feelings.....if
that's what you mean... then YES....when I don't get that....I get pretty
upset....anyone would
Balor 2/17/00 1:47 AM oh
I treat you like some automaton then I guess
Bev 2/17/00 1:47 AM
pretty much....yes
Balor 2/17/00 1:48 AM LOL....alrighty
then
Bev 2/17/00 1:49 AM
I'm not good enuf to talk to in person...on the phone....it's ALWAYS on
the computer.... 'automation'.....YES......you used to call...you used
to invite me over just about every other or every night.....you complained
when I didn't......when I started to....then it was no more fun.....you
knew I would be there
Balor 2/17/00 1:50 AM so
it's up to me to make ALL contact?
Bev 2/17/00 1:51 AM
the truth hurts duzn't it? Nope... it's not....if you remember right....it
has been ME trying to do that for a while now......not you
Bev 2/17/00 1:52 AM
cuz you've been so worried about me 'falling' for you and too busy flirting
online that the REAL thing hasn't been of interest to you
Balor 2/17/00 1:52 AM truth
doesn't hurt no when was the last time you called? Or asked to come over?
All you've done is complain about not going out
Bev 2/17/00 1:55 AM
why should I ASK TO COME OVER??? and I don't dare call cuz you might think
I'm trying to PRY or CROWD you.....same with asking to come over.....heavan
forbid, don't want to do that........I haven't complained about 'NOT GOING
OUT' it's that I haven't even felt you WANTED to or haven't made any attempt
to see how we could
Balor 2/17/00 1:56 AM but
how will you know if you don't ask??
Bev 2/17/00 1:59 AM
I haven't wanted to make you feel smothered in ANY way Balor.....that's
the LAST thing I wanted to do .....I wanted you to feel comfortable with
me and WANT me around.. so I played it cool and waited and waited and waited.....yes
I mentioned some things at times when I just couldn't stand it anymore.....and
you made me feel like you were sorry so maybe things would get better...you
would make an effort.....but you haven't. :(
Balor 2/17/00 1:59 AM make
an effort?? and how do I do that?
Bev 2/17/00 2:01 AM
take an interest in ME.....take an interest in BEING AROUND ME....just
plain TAKE AN INTEREST.....I wait till you message me cuz I'm hoping you
will have an URGE to actually want to see me if I don't just 'plop myself
in your lap'
.......but that hasn't worked either
Bev 2/17/00 2:08 AM
"How will you know if you don't ask?" did this come from YOUR fingers?
:) Do I have a problem asking questions??? hmm? and I don't want to be
answered and misconstrue the meaning.....I want it to come from YOU not
ME
Balor 2/17/00 2:09 AM I have
been around you.....you never ever tell me what you are gonna go do when
you have plans and when you dont'...I am not a mind reader either you know
Bev 2/17/00 2:09 AM
I think enuf has come from me.....for
now.....I'm willing to give and give and give....but I gotta have some
back
Bev 2/17/00 2:10 AM
huh? what's that got to do with anything? when has my plans ever interferred
with ours?
Balor 2/17/00 2:11 AM doesn't
matter...I am tired of arguing I am going to bed
Bev 2/17/00 2:13 AM
me too....
Balor 2/17/00 2:13 AM talk
to you tomorrow
Bev 2/17/00 2:13 AM
I need to get to bed
Bev 2/17/00 2:14 AM
will you?
Balor 2/17/00 2:14 AM prolly
Nite
Bev 2/17/00 2:14 AM
probly huh.....Happy Birthday to ME :)
:( nite
Balor 2/17/00 2:15 AM Happy
Birthday
Nite
Bev 2/17/00 2:15 AM
I meant it sarcasticly.......like gee....this will be a good one after
this convo......NOT
Balor 2/17/00 2:16 AM sorry
not in the mood for sarcasm... nite...talk to ya tomorrow
Bev 2/17/00 2:21 AM
if you want to know if I have plans... then ask....is that why you haven't?
cuz you don't want to be rejected? is that the problem? with PART of this
anyway? I don't dare tell you my calendar of events cuz I don't want to
seem
'too available' we women are taught not to do that.......and BESIDES.....you
don't tell me either about yours....I have to ask
ALWAYS...........nite
Bev 2/17/00 2:46 AM
one other thing that might help to explain why I haven't......it seems
anything I say or do....the response I get just SEEMS obligatory....only
cuz I don't have any other signs to tell me any different....no signs of
REAL interest in it or me....so I keep hoping for a true showing of interest....
if I did then I would be more likely to tell you my plans cuz I would think
you cared and whatever you'd say wouldn't SOUND obligatory....that's all
Bev 2/17/00 2:46 AM
let me know if you got these last 3 messages when you get up and check
for messages k?
Balor 2/17/00 8:51 AM yes
I got them
Balor 2/17/00 6:13 PM Happy
Birthday
Bev 2/17/00 6:13 PM
thank you :)
Balor 2/17/00 6:14 PM how
has your day been?
Bev 2/17/00 6:14 PM
alright, yours?
Balor 2/17/00 6:14 PM alright
Bev 2/18/00 1:15 AM
thanks for asking...earlier
Bev 2/18/00 7:53 PM
are you there? and just invisible?
Bev 2/18/00 9:26 PM
so you are ignoring me?
Bev 2/18/00 11:01 PM
hello?
Balor 2/18/00 11:04 PM hi
Bev 2/18/00 11:07 PM
so what'd you do tonight?
Balor 2/18/00 11:07 PM watched
a movie
Balor 2/18/00 11:07 PM drank some
beer...now heading to bed
Bev 2/18/00 11:08 PM
hmm
Balor 2/18/00 11:09 PM hmmm?
Bev 2/18/00 11:09 PM
yeah...wanted to respond but didn't know how...so....
Balor 2/18/00 11:10 PM oh ok....talk
to ya tomorrow?? wanna go to sleep while my shoulder doesn't hurt
Bev 2/18/00 11:10 PM
that would be nice ok
Balor 2/18/00 11:11 PM ok talk
to ya tomorrow :)Nitey nite
Smooches :)
Bev 2/18/00 11:11 PM
:) k ... smoochies :)
Bev 2/18/00 11:12 PM
sweet dreams :)
Bev 2/20/00 1:37 AM
you there?
Bev 2/20/00 2:18 AM
hello?
Balor 2/20/00 8:41 PM Hi
Bev 2/20/00 8:41 PM
surprise surprise :) hello :)
Balor 2/20/00 8:41 PM how
are ya?
Bev 2/20/00 8:42 PM
ok...u?
Balor 2/20/00 8:42 PM not
too bad
Bev 2/20/00 8:43 PM
have fun this weekend?
Balor 2/20/00 8:44 PM it
was alright....plans got fooked
Bev 2/20/00 8:44 PM
fooked? which part?
Balor 2/20/00 8:45 PM well
most of them....ended up travelling from fishing hole to fishing hole yesterday
checkin the status
Bev 2/20/00 8:45 PM
fishing hole? status of what?
Balor 2/20/00 8:46 PM status
of the places I like to fish....you know resevoir depth and stuff like
that
Bev 2/20/00 8:48 PM
oh...and how is that 'fooked' up? not what you were supposed to do? what
happened to Dan?
Balor 2/20/00 8:48 PM shit
came up and he had to go back :(
Bev 2/20/00 8:50 PM
but he got here...right?
Balor 2/20/00 8:51 PM yup...left
around 11pm friday
Bev 2/20/00 8:52 PM
huh? thot he was supposed to be here
yesterday? messaged you on Fri...you said you were watching a movie
?
Balor 2/20/00 8:52 PM yeah
he came down friday instead...we watched a movie and drank some beer
Bev 2/20/00 8:53 PM
oh
Balor 2/20/00 8:54 PM hey
let me message ya back in a bit...gotta go to ma's house for a little while
Bev 2/20/00 8:54 PM
k
Balor 2/20/00 11:04 PM well nitey
nite...I am hittin the hay
Bev 2/20/00 11:05 PM
hmm....k
Bev 2/20/00 11:10 PM
so what'd you do last night?
Balor 2/20/00 11:13 PM hung around
with Paula
Bev 2/20/00 11:14 PM
how come you didn't answer me last night?
Balor 2/20/00 11:14 PM I wasn't
home
Bev 2/20/00 11:16 PM
oh I see
Balor 2/20/00 11:17 PM what is
the attitude now?
Bev 2/20/00 11:18 PM
no attitude.....it's just that you signed on and off quite a few times....or
your computer did...guess it duz that on it's own or somthing
Balor 2/20/00 11:19 PM Ryan was
using my cam to take pictures
Balor 2/20/00 11:20 PM I am tired
and heading to bed....I'll talk to ya tomorrow
Bev 2/20/00 11:20 PM
oh....ok
Bev 2/20/00 11:25 PM
guess it wouldn't have made any difference, but since your original plans
fell thru and you were busy on Fri night instead of Sat night, I just thot
I'd hear from you cuz you did say we would talk on Sat, and I could've
told you I was free....son was at Tamara's and mom wasn't home all weekend,
but oh well
Balor 2/20/00 11:26 PM Like I knew
that....I am going to bed now...goodnite I don't wanna argue right now
and that is where this is heading
Bev 2/20/00 11:28 PM
not arguing....you just said fri night that we would talk Sat but we didn't...just
saying if we had I coulda told ya....but oh well nitey nite